May 9, 2004
It’s here- Mother’s Day. It’s a really hard day to face if you’re dealing with infertility. This is the first Mother’s Day that I’ve known that we’re infertile. Two years ago, we had been trying to get pregnant for less than 6 months, so it didn’t bother me. Last year, we had been trying for almost a year and a half, but I still had hope it would work (looking back that could have been denial disguising itself as hope.) This year, I know there’s a 0% percent chance of us getting pregnant on our own right now. I also know that I won’t be a mom by next mother’s day either.
Mother’s Day is impossible to escape. Everywhere you go, there’s all kinds of gifts, cards, etc. all letting you know exactly what day is coming. Yesterday, my husband and I were shopping at the Galleria in hopes of finding me a bday present. I was trying on some rings at a jewelry store, and the employee that was helping us asked “Oh, are you shopping for a Mother’s Day present?” The word “no” shot out of my mouth so fast that it was unbelievable. Today I’m just going to lock myself up in my apartment and wait for the day to pass. (At least I have the Survivor season finale to look forward to.)
- Posted in : various other ramblings
- Author : amanda
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