It’s Just Too Much August 16, 2004
Well, I survived our quick trip to MI. Every minute seemed to be filled with some kind of drama. Plane delays, confiscations at security, bad food, “the baby” everywhere, sibling rivalry big time (my mother-in-law and her sister), and the list goes on. It was not a restful trip, in the least, but it was good to see my husband’s family.
This morning I tried to get caught up on the happenings in infertility blog world. I had over 50 unread posts waiting for me. This does not include the happenings on the message boards that I read and post on.
It seems that there has been a lot of heavy discussion going on. I tried to post comments on a couple of blogs and realized that I just don’t have the energy to get into all of that today. I’m just really tired. I’m tired of dwelling on infertility all of the time. Don’t get me wrong, the infertility blog world has helped me immensely. Getting all of my own crap out and connecting with so many wonderful women dealing with similar issues has been amazing. It’s just that sometimes I get overwhelmed with it all. I’m sure that in a couple of days, or even tomorrow, I’ll be able to jump back on the bandwagon with gusto. Right now, though, I just can’t.
I talked to my husband this afternoon and relayed how I was feeling. He said that we needed some time just for us, and I couldn’t agree more. I don’t know when that will be, though. Next weekend we’ll be going to visit my parents for my dad’s birthday. I guess maybe the weekend after that. Over a year ago, I started dreaming of a vacation to Hawaii for the two of us. We haven’t been on a real vacation alone since our honeymoon over 6 years ago. We had planned to go to Hawaii this August until all of this infertility stuff fell into our lap. Now, with the IVF and the expense that it entails, we will not be going to Hawaii, or anywhere else for that matter.
I’m sure once I recover from this trip, I’ll feel better. It’s all just too much sometimes, ya know?
- Posted in : various other ramblings
- Author : amanda
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It sure is! By the way, glad you are back.
Take all the time you need away from blogging and reading blogs. Sometimes we need a break from stuff, including blogging. If you ever find yourself thinking “I really SHOULD blog” or perceiving it as a chore rather than a desire, it is time to stop for a bit, because it has momentarily ceased to serve its purpose.
And yes, some days there is a lot of heavy duty conversation “out there,” whereas other days there is an awful lot of silliness. On the serious days sometimes it is easy to feel that you are suddenly carrying everyone else’s load in addition to your own, and that is just too much for anyone.8/16/2004 7:59 PM
Yes, it is. Do what feels right for you. This whole process is so draining, it is impossible to be totally in the thick of it at all times. Sometimes you do need to take a break. Spending some quality time with your husband is a great idea. We did that this past weekend and it was fantastic! We did not even talk about fertility stuff once. I highly recommend it! :)
Nina
We just spent 5 days in the mountains and I had no desire to read the blogs. It just felt good to get away for awhile, take an infertility mental break.
Do what works for you, but I’ll tell ya by day 6 I was read to re-enter the IF world. It’s weird to be so connected to people’s lives and yet you could pass on the street and not know them.
Marla
http://themiddleway.typepad.com/
I’m glad you had a great time. I’m sorry you can’t go to Hawaii. We’ve also been trying to plan a trip, but we spent our money on the IVF too. I’m still trying to plan something somewhere cheap. We’ll see.
Don’t worry about trying to catch up. There’s lots of time. I missed you and I’m glad you’re back, but ease back in slowly.
I know exactly what you mean about the blog world. Sometimes it can be so helpful, but also overwhelming! I’m not only mourning for my loss but the loss that everyone in the infertility blogsphere is experiencing.
Sometimes it can take a lot of energy and just a few days away from it never hurts.
BabyBlues
(thinkingback)
Take all the time you need, hon. You know everyone will still be here when you come around to it. Every once in a while, we have to step outside and the computer room and rediscover our surroundings.
I really hope that one day, you’ll get your long-deserved trip to Hawaii. I have also been wishing to go there for the longest time. We are thinking sometime in the next two years, no matter what happens in our infertile world.
Thanks, ladies. I knew you guys would understand.