It Was Bound to Happen September 22, 2004
My father-in-law found my blog. I’m almost positive. I have sitemeters on both this blog and my family blog. When I checked my sitemeter for this blog, the domain name at my FIL’s work came up. I clicked on it and compared it to the info from sitemeter on my family blog. Same IP address and same time zone. When I looked to see what the referral was, it was from bloglines. Bloglines is a way to keep track of your blogs by monitoring the RSS feeds. It alerts you when there’s a new post on your subscribed blogs. There’s also a feature where you can click on “related blogs” to any of your subscribed blogs. My Manana Banana blog comes up first when you click on “related blogs” from my family blog’s feed. I didn’t realize that until today. That’s where the referral came from.
I guess I should have known it was inevitable. It would have to happen on a day I vented about my mother-in-law. There’s nothing I can do about it now, though. I guess that’s the price I pay for having this blog.
To anyone that knows me that reads this blog, please know that this is my safe haven. It is not only a place for me to whine and complain, but I place where I find tremendous support. The women I have met in infertility blogland are amazing and mean a ton to me. I don’t mean disrespect to any of my family members, but sometimes I need to get stuff out there. I know every single person in both my and my husband’s families mean well. I truly do. I just need this safe place to be able to get all my thoughts out and to connect to other people going through the same thing. I hope you can respect my privacy on this one. Thanks.
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Edited to add: I was right, as evidenced by my FIL’s comment. As soon as I read that comment, I started to cry. It really meant a lot to me. While in the middle of my crying session, my MIL called to check on me. We talked about my transfer and other various things. I know I can complain sometimes, but I’m grateful to have caring people like my inlaws in my life.
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- Author : amanda
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Amanda-
Oh well. The “related feeds” thing is brand new (as of today, I think), so naturally I had to test it. I’ll be happy to respect your privacy, but if you really want to keep it private you probably need to figure out how to beat the “related feeds” thing, because if you use it on any of the family blogs this one shows up. Hang in there.
Lov
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Don
OHhhhh AMANDA sweetie!!
When it rains, it pours. Hang in there.
Don sounds very sweet and that was nice of him to comment.
If anything, your family will fall more in love with you when they read your raw feelings.
You are human. It is just like someone reading a journal. They are bound to get hurt. Either by being left out of something, not being invited somewhere, or being bitched at in a safe place.
None of my family knows what a “blog” is but I did let my girlfriend read it and I regret it now.
I want my blog to be my raw, really brutally honest place. For me and anyone else who may be going through the same thing.
Others not dealing with infertility do not understand at a deep level.
I am sure that Don knows that if you happened upon a private journal of his, that he would be uncomfortable. Raw honesty is painful sometimes.
My mother would be so upset if she read my blog and I LOVE HER and have only said good things about her.
I just curse alot on my blog and she would be embarrassed by my abrasiveness.
Don, if you are reading this, please help Amanda figure out how to dismantle that links thing. She is in a vulnerable state right now and may need some help.
Take care Amanda.
oh amanda - i’m so sorry you’ve had a rough couple of days. it sounds like you have a really sweet, understanding FIL - and nothing is “broken” with MIL. I’m sure she knows what hell you’ve been through. Please take care of yourself.
-beaver girl