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I Can’t Stop Crying November 8, 2004

Salvador isn’t doing any better. He threw up bright yellow goop at 2:30, again at 3:45, and once again at 4:30. Shortly after 4:30 I called the vet. We discussed all of the options and decided that since apparently none of the medicines that he was given this morning were helping the best thing to do would be to admit Salvador to the kitty hospital. I was in tears before I even put him in the car to drive him back to the vet. By the time I was back in the car driving home without him I was bawling. Now my Lupron headache is magnified many times over.

The plan was to take an xray to make sure there’s no foreign objects in there, do some bloodwork, and start him on an IV. I got a call from the vet a little while after I had gotten back home. Salvador was putting up a fuss for the xray and the vet knew it would continue for the insertion of the IV, so I was asked permission for them to sedate him for these two procedures. This is no surprise. He had to be sedated when he got his IV the last time around, too. So, they’re going to do all of that, and the vet will call me back tomorrow morning to let me know the results of the xray and bloodwork and to update me on how he did overnight.

It breaks my heart in little pieces to have to leave him there. I know that he’s not going to get better just sitting around here, but I miss him so much. It makes me sad to think how alone and scared he must feel. I just hope they can find a way to make him feel better. I can’t lose him. I just can’t.

I talked to my husband after I got home from dropping Salvador off. I made a comment about how they better not charge me another $50 office visit fee since I had already paid that once today and another comment about how this will probably end up costing at least $1,000. My husband replied that it did not matter what they charged us as long as Salvador gets better. I love that man so much. We both worry about money in a lot of areas. It’s pretty natural given the amount of money we’ve forked out for all this IVF crap, but this is one area where money is not an issue. We just want our kitty home and healthy.

Oh, and I don’t know if it’s stress or what, but my period which was long gone decided to make a reappearance. I went to the bathroom after I got back from dropping off Salvador and bam, there it was again. Of course I was wearing some pretty, non-period underwear. Oh, the fun never ends around here.

• Posted in : my furry children, various other ramblings
• Author : amanda

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