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Nearing the End of My Rope November 9, 2004

I spoke to the vet this morning about Salvador. After looking at his xrays last night it appears that he was very constipated. They gave him an enema and hooked him up to an IV. They also gave him a stool softener this morning. His bloodwork came back normal except that his liver enzymes were slightly elevated. He threw up again a little overnight, but the vomiting has decreased in frequency. He’s still refusing to eat, so that’s not good.

I went and visited him around lunch time. He was not a happy camper in the least. He hates being in a cage, and the IV was driving him crazy. I feel so badly for him, and it killed me to have to leave there without him once again. There’s no real way to know if the constipation is solely responsible for his current state, so the plan is to keep him on the IV today and overnight tonight and see how he’s doing in the morning.

I have my baseline ultrasound tomorrow morning, and you know what? I couldn’t care less. I’m so not into this cycle. I told my husband last night after I picked him up from work in the middle of the night (oh, the joys of not being able to buy a second car thanks to IVF) that I was almost done. I know it’s not the only thing that’s stressing me out right now, but this IVF crap is just wearing me out. My husband asked if I wanted to quit now and not do the FET. My response was that I do want to go ahead and finish this FET but that I really don’t know about anything past that. So, who knows what will happen if this FET fails. I just feel like I’m nearing the end of my rope.

I just keep telling myself that if I can just make it through this week that things will be ok. If I can make it through the next two weeks, things should be a lot better. I’m so looking forward to the end of my husband’s arbitration, and I’m also looking forward to making it through the rest of this damn FET. I’m also hoping that my sweet little furbaby will be home in a few days. I’ll feel a lot better if I can just get him home.

It’s really tough that all of this is happening at the same time. I really don’t feel well equipped to handle it right now. I just hope I don’t run out of rope before all of this is resolved.

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1. Anonymous - November 9, 2004

I am so sorry to hear about Salvador… I know what it feels like when these two things hit at once. It’s like how much lower can things get? Your trying to have a baby and then this happens to your furbaby. So unfair.

I hope Salvador gets better soon and you can bring him home. He’s worth every penny and more.

Andrea

2. sherry - November 9, 2004

Praying for a well kitty and a never ending rope…

3. Kim - November 10, 2004

Amanda: Sorry to hear you are having such a tough week. I am hoping that Salvador will be okay. Hang in there, I know it’s hard.
Kim

4. Dee - November 10, 2004

Please hang in there sweetie. I know it’s hard and it seems like life is dealing you a crap hand all at once but you can get through this. It might not be easy or seem quick, but you’ll make it. One day at a time…and before you know it, the weeks will have passed, Salvador will be home, hubby’s arbitration will be over, and this cycle will be in the bag. You can do it Amanda and you’ll find more rope, I know it.

Thinking of you….