I Hate HPT’s February 16, 2005
Why do I do this to myself? I know that breaking out the HPT’s will only make things worse, yet I do it anyway. My bladder woke me up at 3am this morning, but I was determined to try to wait another hour since it had only been 3 hours since my last trip to the bathroom. I managed to lie there for an hour and got up when I thought I was likely to burst. I pulled out FRED from his box, gave him a good tinkle, and set him down on the counter. I looked over after less than a minute had past and saw white. Fuck. I looked back after only a few seconds and saw a very faint line. I couldn’t believe it. I stared at the damn thing for quite a while, and sure enough there was a very faint second line there. I me
an it was super faint, but it was there.
I tried to go back to sleep with no luck so I got on the computer until my husband’s alarm went off at 6:45. I crawled back into bed with him, and he tapped on my head and whispered, “Do you know?” “No, I really don’t,” I answered. I led him into the bathroom and thrust FRED into his hands.
Me: “Do you see it?”
Him: “I see something.”
Me: “Is it a line?”
Him: “I don’t know.”
My husband didn’t want to talk about it anymore after that. He didn’t want to get his hopes up which I can completely understand.
Obviously there was a tad bit of HCG in my system this morning. The question remains, though, was it the remnants of my trigger shot? You wouldn’t think so, since my trigger was 15 days ago, but I’m pretty sure I’ve been burned by the trigger before. Remember this? My husband and I sure do. That super faint line this morning was just a flashback to that.
I decided to get a second opinion. I went and bought a couple of Answer tests which are supposed to be sensitive to 25 mIU just like FRED. I tested this afternoon with the Answer test and got a shadow of a second line right away that faded into oblivion after a few minutes. This was not a welcome result. It’s looking more and more like my test this morning could in fact just be a result of leftover trigger. Tell me this, though. How the fuck do I still have HCG from the trigger in my system if the half life of Ovidrel is 29 +/- 6 hours when I took 500mcg 15+ days ago? I don’t know how, but it’s seems to be sticking around.
I really don’t have much hope now. I fully expect to pee on another stick tomorrow morning and see nothing but white. I’m sick of this crap. Just sick of it.
- Posted in : IVF Part 3: IVF #2
- Author : amanda
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Same Deal here… I’m about ready to take some Xanax.
try different brands clearblue always works best for me. i can get lines on clearblue when it’s still negative on other brands.
Know that I am thinking about you Amanda.
Take care.
beaver girl- I’ve tried to find the clearblue ones, but everywhere I’ve looked so far only has the clearblue digitals. Don’t ask me why.
I am quite certain that the HCG is wayyyyy gone. I can’t explain the fading line thing…but try tomorrow and see what happens. What a sucky place to be right now - I am sorry.
After my IVF I was peeing on EVERYTHING in sight. I took the damn stick outside to look in sunlight to see if there was a line. I truly lose all sanity when it comes to peeing on a stick.
You poor thing.