Isn’t It Ironic? March 6, 2005
The other day my husband and I were shopping, and I started loading the items from our cart onto the conveyer belt thing at the checkout. I leaned over to him and asked, “Don’t you think it’s ironic that we’re buying ovulation predictor kits and alcohol at the same time?” His reply was, “I think it’s pretty ironic that we’re buying ovulation predictor kits at all.”
Oh, yes. I am peeing on sticks again. I know. Isn’t it odd for someone whose husband has no sperm to be pulling out the ovulation predictor kits? Yeah, I think so, too. The thing is that I have to find my LH surge this cycle in order to schedule my beta 3 integrin biopsy for the right time. It has to be pretty precise in terms of timing, so I’m peeing on the damn sticks.
It brings back pretty bad memories, I must say. I’m using the same brand as the HPT’s I’ve used in the past, so they look exactly the same. I don’t like the feeling I get in my stomach when I break out one of those sticks.
I also think it’s ironic that I’m breaking out the ovulation predictor kits before my period’s completely left the scene. I mean, this is insane. I’m on cycle day 10 for pete’s sake. This sucks. Plus, I have no idea what my body will do this cycle. I haven’t had a natural cycle since July. Yep, July. I started birth control pills for my first IVF cycle on August 1st and have been cycling ever since.
I feel like a complete infertility newbie. It has been so long since I’ve used OPK’s that I forgot how to use them. I’ve got the peeing thing down, but I forgot that you weren’t supposed to use first morning urine and all that good stuff. Plus, dealing with the whole “is this line exactly as dark as the other line” thing is tons of fun. I was trying to figure out when the last time I used one of those suckers was, and I think it’s been about two years. My husband was diagnosed almost a year and a half ago, and I know we had given up on the OPK’s well before then. Here we are over three years since the start of this “project” and I feel like we’re back to square one. Combine all of the testing with the OPK’s, and I feel like we’re starting all over again. Of course, all I have to do is flash back to the past 7 months, and I know that’s not the case.
So, I guess we’ll see what my body decides to do. Sometimes it feels like this is all one giant experiment. Science is cool, but being a guinea pig sucks.
- Posted in : testing, testing, 1,2,3
- Author : amanda
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Being a guinea pig does indeed SUCK. I hope you catch a break soon, Amanda…….I really do.
Thinking of you.
It definitely does suck. I really hope t
hat your experimenting days will be behind you soon.
Oh and I am so glad to hear the vial issues was a lab error report and you still have the vials available.
There are digital opks on the market now. Apparently a naff little smiley face shows up if you’re about to pop an egg out. I really don’t know why they need to be so twee though, but maybe there isn’t enough room in the window to write, GO SHAG NOW?
Anyway, good luck with all the testing. Hope you get the answers and results you want.