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It’s Gonna Be a Long Night May 8, 2005

I hate the day before a FET. It’s so hard not to worry about the thaw. I have no clue if we’ll have anything to transfer tomorrow morning, and the thought of fighting to get to this point only to not make it to transfer is just too much.

I’m also worried about the transfer itself if we make it that far. Man, I wish I could have a normal transfer where my husband gets to hold my hand while we watch the happenings on the ultrasound screen. Instead, my husband will be sitting in the waiting room while the anesthesiologist takes his place. Plus, just going into the transfer knowing how my previous transfers have gone just makes for a bad experience. I don’t want to worry about whether or not the transfer will even be possible or how much manipulation will have to be done to get the catheter past my biatch of a cervix. I hate that.

There’s one thing that’s keeping me from really stressing out, though. I’m tired. So freaking tired. My husband and I went to visit my parents yesterday and did not get the best night’s sleep. Between that, the fact that it is so freakin dark and stormy out right now, and the fact that I’m in a PIO induced coma, I’m about to crash. Might be for the best. It sure would be nice just to fall asleep and not wake up until it’s time to leave tomorrow morning.

• Posted in : IVF Part 4: FET #2
• Author : amanda

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