Has It Really Only Been 4 Days? May 13, 2005
I can’t believe I’m only 4 days past transfer. Could time move more slowly? I highly doubt it. Hopefully things will move a tad more quickly this weekend.
This 2ww feels different. I don’t know if I feel different physically (I can never remember how I’ve felt from one 2ww to the next) or if I’m just in a different place emotionally. Either way, it’s different.
I guess I’m just handling this 2ww differently. I’m freaking out in ways I never have before while suppressing some of my different, more notorious freak out urges.
Even though I’ve got my second opinion consult scheduled, I’m not freaking out about Plan B right now. I know I totally did last cycle, and it wasn’t pretty. The time between transfer and beta is not a good time to be making important decisions, so I’m putting all of that on the back burner. Yes, I’ve got a back up plan in the sense that I’ve got that consult scheduled, but I’m not doing the whole “What the fuck are we going to do? Another fresh cycle? Adoption? Donor?” freak out thing this time around. It actually feels kind of strange not to be worrying about that.
I just know that my true feelings about the next step will come out on beta day. They always do. So, I guess there’s just no point in spinning my wheels about that stuff right now. Plus, it’s not like I don’t have enough other stuff to keep my mind reeling. Oh, the fun of the 2 week wait. Anyone got a time machine they could lend me?
- Posted in : IVF Part 4: FET #2
- Author : amanda
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I’m hanging in there with you Amanda. I’m hoping and praying that this one is it for you. We all know where hope gets us, but I say why not.
Do something fun this weekend. Go to the movies, the zoo, the museum, anywhere.
You know what drove me crazy on my last 2 ww? All my cycle buddies seemed to be getting their betas on day 9 or 10. It seemed like I was the only one for whom the 2 ww actually meant 14 days. 4 or 5 days might not seem like a big deal normally but, in 2 ww time, it might as well be an additional month.
Anyway, here’s hoping this weekend flys by for you!
Staci
Oops….make that “flies” by :)
Each day is a month in the 2ww. My only advice is to try to distract yourself with anything and everything else.
Hoping for you…
Oh yes, a time machine would be ideal - here’s hoping time moves a bit more quickly for you.
Oh, sweetie–I just hope, you know.
Good to have a back up plan, though.