The Dreaded Day Is Almost Here June 6, 2005
I really haven’t been looking forward to my hysteroscopy/mock transfer appointment. Hell, I’ve been absolutely dreading it.
It’s not like I don’t have good reason. I think I wouldn’t be worried about it if I didn’t have a bitch of a cervix to contend with. For most people a mock transfer is nothing and a diagnostic hysteroscopy is not too bad. I’m not most people, though. Far from it.
I’m so scared that tomorrow is going to be a repeat of my first transfer. I cannot stand the thought of being in that much pain again. I’ve broken bones before, had to deal with kidney stones for 6 weeks, but I think that transfer takes the cake. Miserable doesn’t even begin to describe it. I’m sure my other transfers would have been the same hell if I hadn’t been blessed with the gift of anesthesia.
I guess I just have to hope my new RE knows what he’s doing. I really think he does, and I honestly think I’m in better hands than I was with my previous RE, so I think I might just survive.
I’m having a bit of a drug dilemma, though. I have a few options when it comes to my drug of choice for tomorrow:
1. Have my husband come with me so I can really drug myself up with a hefty dose of Vicodin.
2. Go by myself and take a few Advil.
3. Go by myself and take a lesser dose of Vicodin and hope I don’t wreck the car in the process.
Option 1 would be fine if my husband didn’t have important things going on at work. Unfortunately, he has witness interviews or something of that nature all day tomorrow. He’s offered numerous times to come with me anyway. That’s just the kind of hubby he is, but I really don’t want him to have to miss work for this. Like I told him previously, if it’s going to hurt, it’s going to hurt whether he’s there or not.
Option 2 would be fine if I wasn’t cervical freak girl. I’m a tough tomato, though, so it’s still an option to consider. To be honest, the pain during my first transfer wasn’t even helped much by Demerol, so the choice in pain killers may be a moot point anyway.
Option 3 is a bit risky, but I’m still thinking about it. I know how my body reacts to Vicodin, and if I take a low dose then it’s a option worth considering. If I pop one Vicodin right before I walk out the door then it won’t go into full affect until after I get to the RE’s office. I don’t usually even start to feel anything for a good hour, so that might work. I’ll be there for a while, so it should wear off enough by the time I’m done that I’ll be fine to drive home. If not, I can always wait a while before hopping back in the car. It’s not like I get drowsy or really even “drugged” when I take one Vicodin, but I know option 3 probably isn’t the most recommended of options.
I don’t know. Any way I go about it, it’s going to suck. Why does my cervix have to be such a bitch? Can’t I just have a nice cooperative cervix that doesn’t cause me trouble?
All I know is that I’m ready to have tomorrow behind me. So ready.
- Posted in : IVF Part 5: IVF #3
- Author : amanda
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I’d go w/ door #3 - I’ll be thinking of you Amanda or should I call you CFG?
I doubt my mock transfers are as painful as your’s, but it was painful enough to make me cry and hurt hours afterwards. Maybe I’m just selfish, but i would choose option #1 regardless of what my husband was doing at work. A good marriage means putting each other first, so it doesn’t surprise me that both of you are prioritizing the other person. However, I think that you win this one. Have him or a friend come with you. Take the Vicoden.
Since your husband has offered, I would definitely go for option 1. Because he wants to do it, you probably want him there, and then you can take Vicodin. Which will probably make the entire experience more manageable.
Please don’t take any amount of Vicodin and drive.
Whatever you decide, I am hoping it will go well tomorrow and that the new doctor will be wonderful. I am crossing my fingers for you.
Good luck and I’m voting for Option #1 or I don’t suppose a cab/car service is an option where you live?
Option #1 sounds best to me, too. And I beg of you, PLEASE do not drive while taking Vicodin!
Best of luck!
Oh yick, sorry you have that pesky cervix to contend with (and all this IF crap as well!). I would go with door number 1 as well, or I would take a cab if it was too difficult for him to get away (which is sounds like it isn’t, so go for it!)
I have bad episodes when my cervix is violated (had to get rushed to the ER once) so I know the fear of that feeling and the dread of that appointment.
Vicodin is for pain and Valium is a muscle relaxant - I am given both for those reasons. It is supposed to peak at 30 minutes to an hour after taking it.
Do you have any Valium left over from your previous cycles?
I am not a doctor and I do not play one on TV and I didn’t even stay at a Holiday Inn last night……….so, it is not my place to tell you what to take.
I only know what gives me relief.
How far is your doctor’s office from your house and from your husband’s office? Can your husband drop you off and then go back to work and then take you back home…..can you take a cab to the appt. and have your husband pick you up at a certain time??? I’m just trying to think of a way for your husband to pick you up but not missing so much work.
Definitely do not drive. You’ll always think you are “okay to drive” and that is not the case.
I will be thinking of you my dear.
Julianna- Nope, no Valium left. Just Vicodin. My RE’s office is way across town from both my husband’s work and home. At least a 45 min drive each way on a good day.
Thanks for the good thoughts everyone. I’ve totally got the consensus that Vicodin+driving=not a good idea.
I’ll just have to pretend to be tough tomorrow. I have a feeling I’ll end up in tears no matter what pills I may pop, so it’s all moot anyway. It’s not like I haven’t survived similar experiences before. I’ll just have to do it again.
Good luck tomorrow! I will be thinking of you!
I hope all goes well tomorrow, Amanda. I’ll be thinking of you.
I will be thinking of you and waiting for your next post. I hope this RE is MUCH MUCH better. To be honest, if he can’t do it without hurting you he should STOP and get you good drugs THEN worry about finishing. Seriously.
On the other side, I believe your husband has “depositions” not witness interviews :-) Depos are like interviews, but more like giving them the second degree. Just a guess though :-)
I agree with Angela. If it is hurting too much, make them stop until they can make you comfortable.
I’ll be thinking of you and can’t wait to get home from work to check on you.
Take care.
Angela- No, it’s actually a witness interview. They have to interview a witness before the actual depostion which will occur at a later date.
I think I’ve come up with a plan with the help of my brilliant husband. I might survive tomorrow after all.