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Voices From the Past July 10, 2005

This weekend has been a big clean up and clean out type weekend in our household. The move will be here before we know it, so we’ve been trying to get as much done as possible now.

Yesterday my husband and I were going through some memento type stuff, and I found a letter he had written me shortly before we were married. In it he had written a bunch of stuff about how he wanted to have kids together so much and how he couldn’t wait for us to be able to start trying to conceive.

I sat there with tears dripping down my face as I read it. There was nothing I could do to get them to stop. The excitement and innocence of the words in that letter just hit me so hard. I had long forgotten what it felt like back in the early days when we thought it would just happen when we were ready. Here we are 7+ years later and look at us. It just broke my heart.

My husband looked over at me and asked what was wrong. I just handed him the letter. He read it and then I crawled into his arms. I haven’t needed a hug that badly in a long time.

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1. Jennie - July 10, 2005

sad, beautiful raw and really does in so few words sum up this whole mess, it’s moments like these that the world suddenly becomes so much larger again your not around the corner and i cant offer anything other than a very long distant hug.. be kind to you sweetling.

2. katie - July 10, 2005

I’m so sorry that you found this now. Letters like that are beautiful, and hopefully one day you can look back on that letter without your heart breaking.

3. PJ - July 11, 2005

Oh Amanda, those naive days are precious. To only be able to go back to them and refresh our spirits.

I’m glad your husband was there to comfort and hug you.

4. T - July 11, 2005

Hey! You made me cry dammit. Seriously - oh honey…

5. Em - July 11, 2005

Ignorance is bliss! I know way too much about my reproductive system and how hard it actually is to get pregnant. There are just so many people who do not have to go through this. It is so unfair.

6. Menita - July 12, 2005

I am crying for you right now. I hope so much that this cycle puts an end to the heartbreak for both of you.

7. KIM C - July 12, 2005

Dammit Amanda,
That made me cry! It’s so sad, all of it. Good luck with this cycle chica!
IF SUCKS!
KIM C