Feeling Unsettled July 27, 2005
I really don’t understand the universe sometimes. Remember my post about my two friends getting positive betas? It really shook me up to learn their news. What’s shaking me up a million times more is finding out that neither of their pregnancies ended up being viable. I’m mad at the world for them. My heart is hearting for them. The world just doesn’t seem right.
Other things are getting to me, too. My IVF coordinator called me yesterday when she was making her freeze report phone calls. My report didn’t have anything written on it so she was confused. I told her that we transferred everything we had so it made sense that there wasn’t anything to report. She apologized for reminding me that we had nothing left to freeze.
It’s not like I was expecting to have anything in the deep freeze this cycle. I just really didn’t need the reminder that there is no backup plan this time. This is it, but I have no desire to think about it.
I’m just feeling weird. I’m nervous about the outcome of this cycle. I’m nervous about our upcoming move. I just want to not have important things to worry about right now.
Can’t things just work out sometime? If not for me, for my friends? I just don’t get it.
- Posted in : IVF Part 5: IVF #3, various other ramblings
- Author : amanda
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I hear you. The only thing worse than when it works out for your friends and not for you (yet) is when it doesn’t work out for your friends. Your IVF coordinator sounds like an idiot.
I don’t get it either. It all sucks so much.
I am thinking of you and hoping so much.
This is such a precarious time for you, no wonder you’re feeling unsettled. I sincerely hope that things work out for you this time…you SO deserve it.
I’m so sorry about your friends’ news. It’s so hard, what we go through for this.
Hang in there. I know this is a stressful time for you. I am hoping for the best possible results for you guys.
I am so, so, so afraid of that. Right now, we know we have a pregnancy; we just don’t know if it’s viable and the fact that it could not be scares me to death. However, I have to believe that good things happen and that they’ll happen for you.
Well, nice of the coordinator to apologize for rubbing salt and lemon into the wound wasn’t it?
I’m sorry for your friends, that is harder than bad things for yourself usually. Not sure why, it just is.
I’m so sorry for your friends. I hope things get easier for you. If it helps, we’re all hoping for you.
I’m sorry for your friends’ losses, but glad they have a good friend in you.
If we didn’t feel these things we wouldn’t be human, unfortunately. (Cliche, I know.) That being said, I truly hope I get to be extremely jealous of you next week.
Sorry to read about your friends. It’s sad news indeed and all the more painful at the stage you are at. Hang in there. Hoping that next week there will be some much happier news.
I’m sorry for your friends - so tough.