Two Week Wait Dichotomies July 31, 2005
It’s amazing to me how my feelings during the 2ww can change in an instant. One minute I’ll be feeling one way, and the next second I’ll be feeling the exact opposite. My favorite of the moment are:
I so hope this worked/There’s no fucking way this worked.
I want to know if this worked right now/I never want to find out.
Come on embryos, stick around/I probably already killed the embryos.
Don’t even get me started on how “symptoms” can fuck with my head. I’ve got the standard progesterone side effects going on as usual, but I’ve got a couple different ones happening this time around. One is that I can’t remember a damn thing. I mean, my memory is totally shot.
The examples are endless. I’ll sit down at the computer intent on looking this, that, or the other up, and as soon as I open the browser I will have completely forgotten what I’m looking for. Yesterday, I went to pick up some lunch for my hubby and myself. I was back in the car before I realized that I had forgotten to order one of the things my husband specifically asked for. Today, I cut out a coupon I was going to use during my errand running and set in on the counter. I got to the car and realized it never made it to my purse. The list goes on and on.
The other thing going on that I don’t remember experiencing before is some major soreness in the nipular region. Um, yeah, enough said. I know all of that means absolutely nothing. It’s enough to screw with my head, though.
I’m trying my best to hang in there despite the constant battle going on in my head. I think I’m doing ok. No major breakdowns as of yet, so I consider that pretty good. Less than five days and this torturous wait will be over.
- Posted in : IVF Part 5: IVF #3
- Author : amanda
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Hang in there Amanda, the 2ww is the absolute worst!!! We are all rooting for you!
Uh oh, the sore nipple thing - that’s a sign… Sorry, don’t want to infuse hope when it’s time to be calm and reasonable.
(I’ll just secretly hope for you since I can’t do it for myself)
I hope the time will start to fly.
Hoping for you!!
i’m thinking of you every day. I hope you are hanging in there.
I’m sorry the 2ww is always so hard and gets harder every time! Many hugs and best wishes. I hope that somehow the next 5 days go quickly and that little embies are sticky sticky sticky *fingers crossed*
The 2ww sucks so very much.
Thinking of you and wishing you the best!
I certainly won’t try to give you any false hope on whether or not your symptoms mean anything, or whether or not “This cycle HAS to be the one” or whatever, because that is not fair to you, and you are right. Just know that I am pulling for you - a lot of people are - and we are all wishing for this for you more than you can possibly know. I don’t know if that is a comfort or not, but I just want you to know that I am praying for this cycle to work for you, and I know that no one in the world has control over whether or not it will work. We’re all just hoping.
Hang in there. There’s a whole bunch of us out here waiting with you.
I’ve got my fingers crossed…
I wish you could feel the cramps in my fingers as a consequence of how hard I’m crossing them for you. Just keep passing the open windows, sweetie. We are all thinking and hoping for you.
I laughed out loud at this part: “Come on embryos, stick around/I probably already killed the embryos.”
So true! I’m in the 2ww also.
Your posts have me howling with laughter and crying like a baby at the same time.
So glad I found your site.
I have 9 days 2 wait 4 my period,its killing me,esp after a misscarriage 4 months ago,fingers crossed 2 all of u out there.x sharon.x
Hi there, I am in the 2ww also, and my memory is shot also from the PIO, reading your post hit home! fingers crossed.
Hi there, I am in the 2ww also, and my memory is shot also from the PIO, reading your post hit home! fingers crossed.
hello im in the two week wait also, and yes its driving me absolutley mad,one minute im up then im down, i keep thinking that ive done something to mine to, maybe ive moved the wrong way or pick up something to heavy. Ive got no symtoms at all swollen breasts and sometime cramp but that must be down to medication. Best of luck to everyone on this board, and yes it will soon be over with the answer yea or nea, its so cruel isnt it
take care everyone and fingers crossed
hello im in the two week wait also, and yes its driving me absolutley mad,one minute im up then im down, i keep thinking that ive done something to mine to, maybe ive moved the wrong way or pick up something to heavy. Ive got no symtoms at all swollen breasts and sometime cramp but that must be down to medication. Best of luck to everyone on this board, and yes it will soon be over with the answer yea or nea, its so cruel isnt it
take care everyone and fingers crossed