The Bitch Won’t Leave Me Alone August 1, 2005
Hope is driving me crazy. She just won’t take a hike. The weird thing is, though, that I’m not actively trying to kick her ass like I did last cycle.
I guess I just feel like I need to have a little hope since this is our last shot. I want to think this could finally work. I know the reality. I’ve lived it, but I want to think that maybe, just maybe, we could finally catch a break.
My boobs are encouraging Hope to stick around. Damn boobs. I swear, they have never been this sore during the latter part of the 2ww. Plus, I think they’re bigger. Ok, not going to think about it anymore.
I’m pretty sure I’m setting myself for a bigger fall by allowing Hope in a little bit. The truth of the matter is, though, that it’s going to be a huge fall no matter what. At least I can try to make it a couple of days without having to get angry at the bitch.
So, four days and counting, and you know what? I couldn’t have made it this far without you guys. So, thank you to my old friends who have stuck by me through cycle after cycle. Thank you to my new friends who I have just recently met in blogland. And thank you to my lurker friends. Thank you all for waiting with me.
- Posted in : IVF Part 5: IVF #3
- Author : amanda
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I am here, holding your virtual hand. Not long to go now.
Thinking of you and keeping my fingers crossed for good things!!
Hope or not, bad news hurts like hell. So I’ll be hoping along with you.
I’ve got my fingers crossed for you. This wait is a bitch, but we’re all here with you. Good luck.
I’m one of those lurkers, thinking of you and hoping right along with you.
Me too, Amanda, me too.
Don’t I know it. If there’s bad news, it will suck whether you’ve had tea parties with Hope or not, so you might as well enjoy her company while you have it. In the meantime, we’ll all be crossing our fingers (and other random body parts) and praying that she gets to stick around for a good long while.
I am so hoping for you Amanda. Friday seems like forever away. Thinking of you every day.
It is my honor to be apart of this with you. I hope these next 4 days just fly by.
I hope Friday comes quickly and that hope makes it all easier.
I’m hoping for you, too.
Amanda - as you know, Hope isn’t very responsive to us - whether we invite her in or kick her butt, she’s still there. The advice I got last cycle was to enjoy it while I could, and I did, and I’m not sure it made it that much worse. And maybe it will be ok?!
It’s hard not to hope…that’s about all we can do just to get us through the interminable wait sometimes.