Doing a Little Better August 11, 2005
I still haven’t fully accepted the situation, but I think I’m feeling better. Having the move coincide with my betas was a good distraction, but it also made things harder. I don’t do well with moving. It just makes me feel really unsettled, and it takes a long time for me to adjust. So, having all of that happen right at the time when I should be adjusting in other areas is really tough for me. I think it also helped that my in laws have headed back home. It’s hard to have all of this new stuff happen and not be able to just be with my husband.
It’s not that I’m not happy about the outcome of this cycle thus far. I am. Very. It’s just hard for me to believe it’s happening. Hell, I’m the failed IVF girl. That’s what I’m good at. This is so unfamiliar that I have no clue what I’m doing.
I had my E2 check done on Tuesday. Apparently it was good enough that I was told to go off the patches. Funny that I’m still wearing one, huh? It makes me nervous to go off of E2 support, but I guess I will eventually.
I found out that I will be able to have my u/s done over here as opposed to making the eight hour trip by myself. My RE’s office is going to fax over an order to the IVF clinic here (there’s only one so it wasn’t a hard choice) so that I can get things set up with them. It’s looking like my first ultrasound will be on 8/22.
This all feels very surreal. I don’t do well with change and to have so much change at once nearly put me into a tailspin. I’m starting to get my footing a little bit, though. Like everything else, I just have to take this new stuff one step at a time.
- Posted in : IVF Part 5: IVF #3
- Author : amanda
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superb news that you don’t have to travel for the u/s on the 22nd.. keep those patches on if they let you breathe even a little bit easier they are worth the sticky pain in the butt to remove residue.
Give yourself some slack. You are going through some very major life changes right now and it is going to take you awhile to adjust. You will get there though. Good things are coming your way.
I’m glad things worked out with the local clinic and that the in-laws are gone. I hope you can start to settle your family into your new home!
Great news about the u/s! Enjoy the “quiet” time in your new place with your hubby.
I completely understand not wanting to say the “p” word. Kinda like how in the old testament Yahweh = He who is so great his name can’t be spoken. You don’t want to break the spell. I hope it’s not a spell but a real hard true thing. The moving could be better timed though.
Change is so often hard, but the changes before you right now seem like some nice ones. (For once!) You deserve all that is good and wonderful. I’m so glad you won’t have to drive so far just for an u/s. Sending you good thoughts.
Glad you’re feeling better… little by little.
I can’t believe you have all of this going on in your life at once. Funny how it seems like you have been spinning your wheels since last August and then it all breaks loose. Good stuff, but still stressful. Please remember that, by the way. The kind of change going on in your life is good, but inevitably stressful as well. So it is OK to take things slowly. The licenses, registration and myriad other tasks will all get done in time. You don’t need to get it all done at once. Please take it easy and be good to yourself.
You know what is also kind of a trip? The people you meet in your new town and through your husband’s new job are pretty much all going to think of you as a pregnant lady and then as a mother. They won’t have had any insight into the hell of this last year. Funny how people’s perceptions of you will be different all because of the timing of the move.
I’ll bet things are stressful. Your whole world just tipped over. I’d be crazy stressed.
I wish you the best and that this sticks around and does exactly what it is supposed to do from here on out.
Very best on the 22nd, I’ll be at the doctor that day too, but with my son, he has to have surgery. Nothing too major, but I’ll be hoping your appointment goes better than ours!