Just Thinking Out Loud August 22, 2005
Don’t mind me. I’m just trying to distract myself until tomorrow.
I’ve been thinking a lot about where I fit in, how to proceed with my blog, how to handle posting with my buddy groups, etc. Obviously, tomorrow’s ultrasound could change everything. It could go well, and I’ll find myself in uncharted territory, or it could go badly, and I’ll find myself in that familiar world of heartbreak.
I find it interesting when people comment about how people handle their blogs or posts once they get that positive beta. About how some people do it with consideration of others and some don’t. I know I’m not handling all of this well. I try to be considerate, but I’m floundering around in the unknown so much that I have no clue if I’m being considerate enough. The last thing I would want to do is make people feel uncomfortable.
I know I’m caught up in my drama right now, though. I don’t know how else to get through this.
The thing is that I don’t think very many people intend to be inconsiderate or forget how it felt to get that negative beta, etc. I think it’s just hard to find your place in all of this, especially if you’ve been in the trenches for a good while.
I don’t ever want to make people feel badly, but I also know that this is my outlet. I can say things here that I can’t say anywhere else. Of course, this may all be a moot point come tomorrow.
- Posted in : various other ramblings
- Author : amanda
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I can only speak for myself, but I am definitely not offended. This is your space, say what you please. I’m sure the transition is really tough.
Wishing you wonderful things at tomorrows ultrasound.
I say blog whatever you want - it’s your blog. Those who aren’t as comfortable reading the new material will probably fade and you will probably add a few readers as you embark upon your next chapter of your journey. But this should be your safe-haven, your outlet. I know I will stick around. Best wishes for tomorrow.
Darling, say what you want! This is your space, and I read this because I want to know exactly how YOU are feeling. Plus, I like to know that someday, I may get out of the hope/heartbreak cycle myself. I’m nervous for you tomorrow. I’ll also be having an ultrasound, but mine is to make sure NOTHING is happening. I hope the opposite is true of yours…
I definately say you do what you want in your space. No one HAS to read it if they can’t. In fact, I have a post about this brewing as soon as the percocet wears off. I’ll be thinking of you tomorrow.
It’s your blog, blog what you will - as you will. :-) Not that it matters, I’ll stick around. I like reading the success stories as well as the dealing and alternate success stories. It gives me courage and hope to deal with my subfertile mess.
Best of luck tomorrow!!
Jenn and B are right. Some people will just stop reading because it’s too painful or they aren’t interested and others will find you simply because they’re in the same predicament.
This is your space, and I can predict that no matter how things go or how you handle them, plenty of people will still enjoy your writing and your sense of humor.
Yeah…what THEY said.
Keep on writing, please.
Ditto, ditto, ditto. IF blogging lends itself to a huge support group-like community, just by the nature of the subject, but that doesn’t mean that once someone moves to pregnancy, the Internet friendships that developed in the trenches of IUIs and IVFs suddenly disappear. Plus, it seems to me that people who are pregnant after IF often still have a lot of hoops to jump through. I think as long as it feels right to you to write, write! (And I hope you keep writing.)
I’ll be curious to see where you net out with this one. Been struggling with the same issues myself for months now.