An Easier Decision Than I Expected August 31, 2005
After several attempts to get through on our iffy phone lines courtesy of the hurricane, I got ahold of my IVF coordinator in Houston yesterday. The first thing she told me was that I needed to go back for another ultrasound next week. I was stunned. There was no question in my mind that yesterday’s ultrasound was the final nail in the coffin. She said she would talk to my RE and call me back.
After some more phone line nonsense, I talked to her again later yesterday afternoon. She said that my RE agreed with me that there was no need for another ultrasound. It doesn’t matter whose equipment you’re using, if you’re seeing a sac that measures 2.5 weeks behind with no fetal pole or heartbeat at 7.5 weeks, it’s over. Thank goodness I don’t have to go through more ultrasound torture.
I then talked to her about my options as to how to proceed. I already knew what they were: 1) natural miscarriage, 2) drug induced miscarriage, or 3) D&C, but I wanted their opinion on the matter. She said that my RE preferred that I go the natural route, but that I could do the drug induced thing or D&C if I wanted to use the RE here.
I was really torn yesterday. I’ve never done this before, so I had no clue what to do. I know that doing the natural thing can be very painful and it could potentially mean quite a wait. On the other hand, using the meds to get things started would eliminate the wait but would require more monitoring and could cause some not so nice side effects. Then there’s the D&C. Obviously, that gets things over and done with in one fell swoop, but it would have to be done with a doctor who I really don’t know or trust.
I decided to sleep on it last night. Today my body made the decision for me. I stopped PIO yesterday, enjoying my first “no giant injection in my ass” night in 5.5 weeks, and to my surprise, I’ve already started spotting today. I really didn’t expect that to happen this quickly, but it’s a signal to me that my body is ready to do it’s thing, so I’m going to let it.
Thank you all for all of your support throughout all of this. I honestly don’t think I could make it without you guys.
- Posted in : IVF Part 5: IVF #3
- Author : amanda
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I’m glad they aren’t making you go through another week and u/s. I wish I had something better to say, but I’m so sorry. Stock up on cookies and movies and know that you have a lot of people thinking about you.
I am so sorry Amanda.
You are constantly in my thoughts.
I’m also glad that they didn’t make you wait another agonizing week waiting for an u/s. I’m still sorry this had to happen at all.
I know the coming days and weeks will be very hard…I’ve been thinking of you a lot. This shit is raw and painful and I so wish you weren’t going through it.
Oh Amanda…you sound strong. I am thinking of you. You will get through this.
Just thinking of you… wish I could do something more to help.
I’m glad it’s happening quickly. If you can bear it you might go and read Julie’s archives about her early 2004 miscarriage – she ended up an advocate of getting it over with. Seems as if you don’t have that issue, but is worth bearing in mind.
I’m so sorry this is happening to you.
I’m glad a tough decision was made a little easier. I’ve had several D&C’s, and they are not bad, but it definitely helps to have a doctor you know and trust. Thinking of you and wishing I could do more.
I’m glad your body isn’t making you wait. I chose to use the misoprostol to avoid potential scarring from a d&c. It ’s a tough decision with no easy answer. Take care and surround yourself with understanding, loving friends and chocolate.
I’m sorry it was even a decision you have to make. I personally opt for the D&C, but even that didn’t get it all over for me quickly. I hope this is at least physically easy on you.
Ugh- I’m sorry that you have a bad night ahead of you. I hope its as pain free as possible. I had a D&C because I was 10 weeks along before we gave up on it (my sacs & betas were growing/doubling nicely- there was just nothing in them).
Anyway you do it, it sucks. I’m sorry.
I’m still so sorry, sweetie. I’m glad your body made this decision easier on you, but it’s still got to be a very rough time for you.
Thinking of you, and sending thoughts and prayers for healing.
Shit. I’m so sorry. Just know it gets better with time, I swear.
My thoughts, prayers and sanity are with you tonight.
It’s so tough to make a choice like that when all the options just underscore the awfulness of it all, but I think you’re doing a wise thing, Amanda. May it go quickly, without pain, and in peace. And may you heal soon.
Thinking of you and hoping that the spotting is a sign that things will happen quickly.
I too am still very sorry. I will tell you that I never expected my experience to be as physically painful as it was. I had to wait 3 days between the time I started spotting and my D&C. I couldn’t imagine having to wait any longer. I wouldn’t blame you if you changed your mind. My thoughts are with you.
I have had 2 “natural” miscarriages, and wow, do I ever hate that term…be sure to rest and take care of yourself…what I did during mine, was hide inside and play cards on the computer. Ah..whatever works eh?