The Not So Fun Beta September 13, 2005
Not that any betas are fun, but some are definitely worse than others. I had to go in for my first post miscarriage beta this morning, and it sucked big time. I’m so sick of RE’s offices. I’m also sick of being in between RE’s offices.
I’m getting stuff done at the RE’s office here so I don’t have to make the 8 hour round trip drive to Houston to get things done with my actual RE. It’s nice not having to make the drive, but it sure is a pain in the ass other ways.
Today, they didn’t call me with my beta results. They just faxed them to my RE in Houston. At least they did that. However, it’s very hard for my RE’s office to get through to me here due to the problems with the post hurricane phone lines. It only took my IVF coordinator eight tries today.
Anyway, my beta came back in the 500’s. I didn’t get the exact number because of this lack of communication issue. Now I have to go and get an ultrasound done tomorrow to make sure there’s no retained tissue. Fuck.
When I called to schedule the appointment with the RE here, I got the run around because I’m not an actual patient. Like I need that on top of everything else.
Oh, and another thing that really added to my fun today was seeing “abortion, spontaneous” on my lab sheet. That just made me feel peachy.
I eventually got an ultrasound appointment scheduled for tomorrow, so hopefully we’ll find out what’s going on. I swear, if I have to have a D&C after going through the hell of a natural miscarriage, I am going to freak.
On another note, I fully intend to respond to some of the comments on my last post. You guys really gave me a lot to think about. I’m just not up to it today. The past fews days have been really, really hard. I really do want to post about it at some point, though.
So, I’m keeping my fingers crossed for whatever would be good news tomorrow. I really don’t want to have to deal with a “retained tissue” situation, but I also don’t want to deal with a beta that won’t fall fast enough without any real reason.
I have a follow up over the phone scheduled with my RE on Thursday. At least I’ll actually get to talk to someone about what the hell is going on. Right now I just feel like I’m in limbo.
- Posted in : Limboland: the aftermath of IVF Part 5
- Author : amanda
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Wow, you know, when you think it couldn’t get worse…
I’m sorry. How do you manage not to stomp up and down cursing loudly?
I’m so sorry you’re going through this. I know how much the whole miscarriage process sucks.
I hope everything looks normal tomorrow and that the beta continues to drop. Mine didn’t go down right away, even after a D&C. Hang in there, sweetie.
I am really hoping tomorrow’s appt. shows things are okay, and that there is no D&C in your future. Your RE situation sucks huge right now, I am sorry you have to deal with all the long distance communication crap. I’ll be thinking of you…
I’m so sorry. Retained tissue sucks as I found out. I hope that’s not the case for you.
I’m thinking of you….So sorry you have to go through all this.
I’m so sorry, I hope the beta starts dropping and that you don’t have to add another procedure to the mix.
It’s hard enough being an out of town patient without having to go through what you’re experiencing. Please let the sono be okay…you do not need to go through any more than you already have.
We seem to be on the same unfortunate schedule. I’m in the middle of devising a voodoo dance against my own body. I’ll be happy to share the steps once I have them worked out.
I don’t know about you, but my arms are beginning to make me look like an addict. When the guy with the needle asked which arm to pull blood from yesterday for my betas, I just said, “Oh, why don’t you add another bruise over on this arm.” He looked down at the crease on my inner elbow and said, “I didn’t do that, did I?”
He looked very happy to find out he wasn’t a bruiser. At least somebody got a little satisfaction out of all this.
So here’s hoping the betas drop drop drop down to nothing. You deserve a good break and some better news.
Thinking of you….