Could This Drag On Any Longer? October 4, 2005
I really thought that my beta today at 4 weeks after my miscarriage would be negative. Hell, I thought it would be negative last week, but it came back at 17. You would think a week would be long enough for it to drop down from 17. Oh, but no. Things can’t be that easy.
Today’s magic number was 5.65. It has to be less than 3 to be considered negative. Do you think my RE’s office is going to let me get away with forgoing another beta? Nope. I have to go back again. Fuck!
It’s been six weeks since we learned that we weren’t going to have a happy ending from this last cycle. I’m ready to move on. I don’t feel like I can really do that when I have to keep going back for blood work every week. Who’d have ever thought I’d be wishing so much for a negative beta?
- Posted in : Limboland: the aftermath of IVF Part 5
- Author : amanda
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Oh for Chrissakes! I don’t know what’s more infuriating… that your body won’t get with the program or that your RE won’t let you squeeze by with this almost-negative beta. I’m so hoping that that damn number goes to negative asap.
I feel your pain, Amanda. Last time I was in that situation, I went in one day and my beta was 6 — but my RE considers “less than five” to be negative, and they STILL made me do it again the next week.
Hang in there. We’re all thinking of you.
Yes, I agree it is messed up the things we wish for sometimes?!?
Sorry about the beta hell…
Oh, I’m so sorry you still can’t just put this behind you.
I never thought I’d say this, but I surely hope your next beta is negative!
That’s crazy. There’s no reason to keep tracking your beta like that! When you get your period, you’ll know it’s negative. This is just torture. I’m sorry, Amanda.
Mine didn’t go down until 11 or 12 weeks, so I know how infuriating it is. Hopefully the next one will be negative.
Down beta, down!
Thinking of you.
Stupid beta. I’m gonna go over there and kick its ass.