Comments on: Meltdown Mode

By: Angela

Angela — Wed, 25 Jan 2006 20:21:49 +0000

My personal favorite is the thumper who told me it was “God’s Will” that I lose 4 pregnancies. That I didn’t deserve to be a parent b/c God was telling me no. Apparently, I’m also not being a good parent to my son, b/c if I was, GOD would want me to have another baby… ::roll eyes::

Everybody who thinks that way can BITE ME.

By: thalia

thalia — Sun, 22 Jan 2006 21:59:38 +0000

Oh Amanda I wish this had been easier. I wonder if it’s even possible to get through stims with no stress. I do hope that they trigger you today – it sounds as if many of your follicles would be ready to go.

Fingers crossed.

By: Jenn

Jenn — Sun, 22 Jan 2006 20:49:31 +0000

I’m sorry this is so tough. And the God stuff angers me. If people manage to get through this by relying on their faith, fine. But don’t push it on everyone else. Especially since it seems like most of LOSE our faith somewhere along the way.

By: Kimmer

Kimmer — Sun, 22 Jan 2006 18:02:25 +0000

Hoping everything goes okay today for you Amanda.
Thinking of you!

By: ericalil

ericalil — Sun, 22 Jan 2006 13:42:09 +0000

Amanda, I’m hoping like hell (hehehe, take that, you happy clappers!) you have a good monitoring this a.m. and your e2 behaves.

Good luck!!!

By: Menita

Menita — Sun, 22 Jan 2006 06:38:35 +0000

Holy crap. Hang in there and keep going.
I’m sorry about that woman, that sucks. Fine if it helps her, but can’t she keep it to herself? I am sorry, dear Amanda.
Keep going, keep going. Like you said, you’ve gotten through this before. I just hope it’s the last time you need to.

By: Hannah

Hannah — Sat, 21 Jan 2006 23:47:24 +0000

Hang in there! You have every right to freak out. Hoping and praying for good results! :-)

By: Pamplemousse

Pamplemousse — Sat, 21 Jan 2006 23:37:16 +0000

It’s Ok. You are allowed one major freak-out per cycle only, kay? Just one, though. Don’t go pushing your luck or I will start praying on your arse hahaha!

By: fisher queen

fisher queen — Sat, 21 Jan 2006 20:11:17 +0000

We are definitely some tough old bitches. Hang in there- it may turn out to be just fine.

By: Staci

Staci — Sat, 21 Jan 2006 17:58:00 +0000

Yikes. Just reread my post and what a mess.

Please excuse all typos and grammatical errors. I’m so tired these days that I can barely string a sentence together.

By: Staci

Staci — Sat, 21 Jan 2006 17:56:27 +0000

Ugh…I hate it when God gets dragged into this. My mother is good for doing that. I tend to avoid avoid her phone calls like the plague when I’m cycling.

I’m having problems too. Apparently I have 19 or so follicles but most of them were only around 10- 13 mm. The largest was only 15mm and that was just one of them. I’m on Day 10 of stimming here.

Also, my lining is only at 7 which really concerns me. I wish this clinic had just let me use viagra since I had great success with it in my last FET (well, not success as in the FET actually working, of course….ha, what an absurd thought… but my lining did get really thick for once).

Anyway, I have to go back in early Mon. morning and will, possibly, be able to trigger that night but, at this slow pace, it’s not looking good. I don’t know why they haven’t bumped up my meds. I’m only on 225 iu. Meanwhile, I still didn’t manage to find out what my E2 is. Knowing me, that’s probably skyrocketing while my follicles are taking their time.

I actually had the “I wish I never started this” moment yesterday followed by the “I will never do this again” moment. I was saying those words to my DH in tears. Little late on Day 9 of stimming to be having regrets. Anyway, the resolve you managed to muster up in your post was encouraging. I need to work on being tougher.

I do really sympathize with that drive you are doing. I had to leave the house at 5:30 this morning to make it to my appt. If I were in your shoes, that would have been more like 3:30. And, I don’t know about you, but sitting in a driving position for that length of time is extremely uncomfortable under the circumstances. It took me a half hour after getting out of the car today to even be able to stand up straight again :{

Ok, enough complaining. Sorry!!

By: Julianna

Julianna — Sat, 21 Jan 2006 17:52:26 +0000

You are doing great. It is amazing how strong you are and of course, this is a rough spot. Your body is performing like a champion!

I had to drive only 2 hours for my RE appts and that was too much, I cannot driving so far like you are doing.

I wonder if that is one of my relatives on that board…just kidding, but i bet whoever it is, is Southern Baptist….it sounds like what i grew up with….yep, the devil is evil and it is all his fault. Isn’t there a witch somewhere who can kick his ass?

Hang in there, you’re doing awesome,

By: Portlairge

Portlairge — Sat, 21 Jan 2006 16:56:41 +0000

You are one of the toughest out there Amanda. I hope that the next few days fly by. Good luck tomorrow.

By: Kristin H.

Kristin H. — Sat, 21 Jan 2006 16:45:00 +0000

Oooh good, glad you can stay the night. Hang in there my dear. You just gotta go day by day with all this….sucky, sucky, I know.

By: amanda

amanda — Sat, 21 Jan 2006 16:05:06 +0000

Thanks so much guys. What would I do without you?

Avonlea- Dan and I are driving over this afternoon and spending the night tonight. I think that will help the fatigue issue at least some.

By: AnnMarie

AnnMarie — Sat, 21 Jan 2006 16:01:43 +0000

The God thing pisses me off and it always angers the shit out of me…it may have inspired a rant on my own blog…as far as your cycle goes, your body’s reaction is quite impressive. I don’t know what’s better – too much or too little of a reaction…and you may very well have some mature eggs in there. It is totally worth a shot…IVF is all about chance anyway. This cycle may very well be awesome afterall. Stay centered…

By: Avonlea

Avonlea — Sat, 21 Jan 2006 15:56:29 +0000

Uhgg!! People like that make it hard to be respectful. So insensitive!

I hope the sailing will suddenly smooth and you will coast at just the right speed. Any chance you can stay near the clinic overnight soon? Any chance you can pamper yourself a little?

Take care of yourself. We’re pulling for you.

By: Karen

Karen — Sat, 21 Jan 2006 14:50:45 +0000

Hang in there, Amanda. There still seems to be positive indicators for this cycle, I have every hope for you that it will turn out OK. I wish it could be easier!

By: T

Sat, 21 Jan 2006 14:31:18 +0000

I think if your big boys quadrupled by Sunday it wouldn’t be terrible to trigger – just my opinion of course and SO hoping for no OHSS.

I think they should have a God Squad board where people that lean that way can go and post and leave us heathens alone.

By: Lisa

Lisa — Sat, 21 Jan 2006 13:59:51 +0000

Ugh…I’m so sorry you’re going through all of this worry and freaking out. You’re right in that it’s inevitable at some point in an IVF cycle but dammit, it doesn’t make it easy. Not to sound trite but I’m hoping so badly for you…I’ll be on pins and needles waiting to find out how tomorrow goes.

Oh and that religous nut is unreal…WTF?!?