What a Pain in the Ass February 4, 2006
I think Dan hit a nerve while doing my PIO shot last night. Holy crap, it hurts. When you consider how long I’ve been doing these damn shots (15 or so weeks over the course of six cycles) I guess stuff like this is inevitable.
I managed to fall asleep last night and was doing ok until Muffy woke me up for her 5am feeding. I just couldn’t go back to sleep after that. There is no position that I can sit or lay in that doesn’t hurt. Plus, as a fun bonus, I can barely walk. Forget crossing my legs. I always cross my legs in one form or another, so now I feel completely wonky having to sit here with both feet on the floor.
I remember this happening before in a previous cycle. I guess there’s nothing I can do but wait for it to get better. Well, that and complain about it.
I still can’t shake this feeling that this cycle didn’t work. I’m just completely convinced that I’m headed towards a negative come beta day. It doesn’t matter how many people try to convince me that how I’m feeling in this 2ww shouldn’t be compared with how I felt during the 2ww I got pregnant, I’m not buying it.
I’m not having any of the symptoms I had by this point last cycle. Not one. My boobs have turned out to be a pretty darn good pregnancy litmus test. Sore boobs= positive beta. Lack of sore boobs= negative beta. You guessed it, they’re not the least bit sore this cycle. Last cycle they had started by 6dp3dt and were continuing to drive me crazy with their hope inspiring properties on 7dp3dt.
I’m 6dp5dt transfer today and nada. No sore boobs, no memory loss, no exhaustion, no nothing. I know, I know, plenty of people get a positive beta without symptoms. I just don’t believe that I’m one of them. I could believe that if this was my first cycle and had nothing to compare it to. I know how I felt when I was pregnant, though. And yes, I know every pregnancy is different, but that still doesn’t change where my mind stands on this one. I’m convinced. And there’s just nothing that can be done to change that. I just have to hope that I’m wrong.
- Posted in : IVF Part 6: IVF #4
- Author : amanda
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Hi Amanda
I’m sorry this 2 ww is dragging. I hope your pain gets better soon. I always have sore boobs from the PIO shots so I could never tell from that if my cycle worked or not. Your body must be so used to the PIO by now, t doesn’t even react. I hope Wednesday comes quickly.
Sorry about the PIO incident. My DH hit has hit nerve a few times so I know what you’re talking about. I was seriously worried for awhile that something had been damaged for good and I’d never be able to walk pain free again! One thing that gave me a little relief, especially at night was using those Thermacare heat pad things. I didn’t use the huge ones for the back, just the smaller sized ones which I could put over the sore area.
I wish there was something I could say to make you feel better about things. I’m just hoping this week goes by pretty quickly for you. There’s nothing worse than having to wait so darned long to know the outcome.
Hey Amanda…I can relate to everything you’re saying, but remember, not every pregnancy has the same symptoms…and most of all, remember what your body just went through. You managed to crank out an amazing amount of eggs with an estrogen level that was the most many have ever seen. Your body is trying to level out and recover while undertaking a pregnancy. Try not to dwell on the results, it’s all out of your hands now. What will be, will be. You’ve got some little guys frozen now for another chance. That in itself is awesome. Relax (esaier said than done) and use this time to take care of you. Everything will turn out the way you want it to, if not this time, the next. Take care of you.
I’m praying that you’re wrong also. But, I understand how you feel completely.
Thinking of you and I hope that your leg/shot pain gets feeling better…
I’m sorry this is so tough.
I hope muffy and salvador are giving you a little kitty comfort.
and ouch on the nerve situation. ouch.
Amanda, wonderful new template by the way, it’s much more elegant, I think, than the last one.
Sorry that your boobs are not inspiring hope. I do buy what everyone else said, this time doesn’t have to be like the last time. There is still hope.
Have you peed on a stick yet?
Thanks, guys.
Thanks for the template compliment, Thalia. It’s still a work in progress.
No, the HPTs are still tucked away in their nice little boxes. They’ll come out at some point, but I’m too scared of bad news to break them out yet. I’m thinking Monday.
Amanda
I’m hoping that you are wrong about the boobs. I also did a 5 day transfer and didn’t have noticeably sore boobs at all but was positive. Fingers crossed for you.. Also, winced on your behalf reading about the PIO shot. I was on the pessaries which was messy and tedious to remember to use but I think I was lucky not to have to shoot up any more.
thinking of you
Have my fingers seriously crossed for you!!
It is very intersting to read about your infertility- we both came to the same fork in the road and went different directions. My DH is also azoospermic, but the hormonal kind. His sperm never get a chance to mature so he has a zero count as well. Without a few sperm even IVF with ICSI is impossible so we ended up going down the donor semen route. I realize that IUI would seem a serious step back to you but if (and please know I hope you are preggo as I type this and it sticks) this last IVF/FET doesn’t work out, I was wondering why you are thinking of adoption when donor IUI might give you the opportunity to experience pregnancy and birth.
Whatever your path, I hope your child finds you soon.
Love the new look, just checked back in!
Dear Amanda, I’m sorry about the nerve — that sounds very painful. As for your feeling — I, too, hope you’re wrong.
I love your new look! It’s very clean and elegant. An amazing makeover!
Hi Amanda, Man, that sucks about your DH hitting a nerve. So far mine hasn’t done so, although after the last IVF my butt hurt for about 3 months from the PIO injections. Every time I ran it was a nice reminder of that cycle.
I hope you are wrong about your lack of symptoms. I know how hard it is to stay positive right now, so we will stay positive on your behalf.
Love, love, love the new look of the site. It’s so cool that your comments come out in a different color, too!
Oh, what a cute new look! Hoping that your intuitions are wrong, and that there’s good news afoot soon…
It is fun indeed to get a new template….:-)…yeah for new templates. Yours is very very cool…sophisticated yet fun :-).
Crossing my fingers a bit more, just in case, better said crossing my fingers that your general mood, feeling about this goes up and has a reason to go up.
Take care and cuddle the kitties.
N
Same thing happened to me once, and I couldn’t walk for several days. It hurt so bad! I recommend heat, lots of it.