I just know you’re going to be a mom one day, and a great one at that. I’m so glad that you have the same resolve, and I’m so in awe of your strength and perseverance. Know that your cheering section is huge!

Mottos to live by. I love it.

I found “Adopting After Infertility” to be a great book – Did you like it?

I just want you to know that you are not alone in your pain.

My husband in a type I diabetic, is on dialysis for kidney failure, has high blood pressure and has a condition known as retrograde ejaculation. And as if that was not enough, I endured two myomectomies to remove fibroid tumors. So, when we got pregnant on our first IVF cycle with a set of twins, we thought that finally God had smiled on us.

At five months pregnant, I started having a increase in vaginal fluid, which escalated to preterm labor, which escalated to me giving birth to my baby girl on a Saturday November 27, 2005 and my baby boy on the next Monday which was November 29, 2005. Neither of our babies survived due to them being to premature.

We are still devastated to have been so close to our dreams of being parents and having in taken away in a flash. But, like you and your husband we have some frozen embryos that we plan to have transferred. We are terrified, but are determine to be parents.

Hang in there. You are not alone.

I’m as ever, impressed by you, Amanda, and your partnership with your husband. I’m pleased that you feel so powerful, so in charge. Your story has never depressed me, it has inspired me and awed me. Thank you.

I’m so sorry that things have turned out this way for you. I haven’t commented because I didn’t know what to say. Except it sucks. And that doesn’t even begin to describe it I know.

That being said, closing the door on IVF (if that’s what you decide to do) and moving towards adoption is hard, but for me, it was the best decision I’ve made in this whole stupid mess that’s called infertility. Shit, I could even be described as happy lately (omg who would’ve thought????).

I’m rooting for you w/e you decide. You’ll get your happy ending.

E-mail me if you wanna talk or want some more resources.

(((((big hugs)))))

Jenn

I never wanted to be different and have to take a different path. I have always known that there is a big chance that I will not be a mother. In fact, it is more likely that I will not be successful with DE treatment and our decision is that adoption is not for us. I have accepted that and will continue to accept and adapt and keep on living my life. Happy endings come in all different packages and I may already have mine. It would be sad but I will survive.

I am still here rooting for you, sweetie. Occasionally with swear words at the universe, but always with love and empathy.

The fact that you’ve gone through so much and have such spirit to fight for what you want, even if it means going down a whole new path, is very encouraging to me and I’m sure to many others who have also fallen on the bad side of the IVF statistics. You’ve reminded me that I’m not completely powerless in all this. While I can’t determine the outcome of IVF and can’t make it work for me if it’s not going to, there are other ways to become a parent if that’s what I truly want and set my mind to. Sitting around feeling sorry for myself and assuming nothing will work out isn’t going to get me there any sooner.

Emily is right. Your picture should definitely be pasted next to the word inspiration in the dictionary!

Good for you re: educating yourself. Hope it helps bring you to some decisions.