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Breaking Out the Calendar March 23, 2006

Yesterday morning I decided that I was going to go for the 5/19 transfer date even if it meant longer on the evil birth control pills. It just worked out better schedule wise. Plus, getting a negative on my birthday would not only ruin it, but it would also ruin our anniversary which is two days later. I really need those days not to be doom and gloom. More importantly, I just cannot foresee being able to handle having my birthday and our anniversary forever linked in my mind with the end of our trying to conceive “career.”

I put in a call to my IVF coordinator to let her know what I had decided. When she called me back she let me know that the person whose FET transfer was scheduled for 5/12 had just called to request that it be pushed back a week leaving the 12th open for my transfer after all. This made me a happy camper.

So, I’ll be starting BCPs today and have a schedule that should go something like this:

3/23-4/12 BCPs
4/10 Start Lupron
~4/18 Start Vivelle patches (date based on when my period shows)
5/7 Start PIO
5/12 Transfer

It’s nice having dates to put on a calendar.

Sometimes I want these next seven weeks to fly by so I can get this thing over with and sometimes I never want ET day to come. If I don’t transfer them then it won’t have to be over. It’s a weird place to be in, wanting something over but not wanting it to end. I know I need to do it, though. I need to find out how this thing turns out.

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1. Lisa - March 23, 2006

I’m glad you got the date you wanted in the end…you’re so right about needing the good days ahead (birthday and anniversary) to not be doom and gloom. I’m glad things are underway for you.

2. InSpring - March 23, 2006

It’s so great to have those happy moments in the midst of all the hormones I hope they’ll be great days for you.

3. Staci - March 23, 2006

That’s great that you ended up getting the preferred date after all!

I know exactly what you mean about half wanting things to be over with so you can move on yet sort of wanting to have the reassurance of those embryos still sitting there so it’s not over. It’s a frustrating place to be in.

4. AnnMarie - March 23, 2006

I share your ideas…if it is all meant to be over, I’d rather have it hurry up and be over…then on the other hand, I never want that day to come. The idea that it could all be over ccould bring along some relief, but it’s such a painful ride in the meantime. As much as you may not want to hear it, I gotta say it — this whole damn process may work for you. You’ve got those dates on the calendar, so just concentrate on reaching each one of those dates. Some weeks will drag, others will fly by, but if this thing works, you won’t give a crap about the wait.

5. Jennie - March 24, 2006

thrilled you got the day you really wanted!, I can so empathise with the wanting but not wanting it to be over but the time will pass hopefully it’ll be an easy wait and not the hard slog we sometimes get to deal with.

6. Kimmer - March 24, 2006

Yeah for a schedule! So glad beta will not be on your B-day or anniversary. Good luck Amanda! Praying it all works out this go around.

7. Beth - March 24, 2006

Excellent news that you ended up with the dates you wanted. Good luck this cycle, Amanda.

8. fisher queen - March 24, 2006

I understand your ambivalence. Hopefully this will work and it will be a non issue.

9. Anonymous - March 24, 2006

I am thinking of you and I am glad you went with the 5/19 date. I think I would agree with that one as well. I can’t imagine what you are going through but you are in my thoughts.

10. One Half - March 26, 2006

The best of luck to you for this cycle! You and me have B-day nearly the same day I think (if I calculated yours correctly)…good luck for everything (but FET cycle mostly :-)) and hopefully you get a late present for your birthday :-D

Nina

11. Kath - March 26, 2006

I’m so glad your original date worked out after all, my dear. Sending you loads and loads of good wishes and luck.

12. Joied - March 26, 2006

Glad the date worked out in the end. I hope the next couple months fly by for you and everything works out for you!

13. Mary Scarlet - March 26, 2006

Ah, so glad you got the date you wanted! I am hoping this is THE cycle

14. Pamplemousse - March 27, 2006

Looks like a perfect date!

15. Larisa - March 27, 2006

Glad to hear that you got the date you initially wanted. I hope the weeks fly by and you have your answers. Wishing for a happy ending.

16. thalia - March 29, 2006

Thank goodness the universe pulled it together this time and got you the right date. It just does seem extraordinary how hard it is to manage our lives and manage all these dates and times and trade-offs. Hoping for you.