The Best Laid Plans April 13, 2006
I knew it was going to be important for me to do two things tomorrow: spend lots of time with Dan and have some fun distractions planned. (I’m sure I don’t need to repeat it since I’ve been a blogging fool about it, but tomorrow is my would have been/could have been due date.) So, I decided that this weekend would be a good time to make a trip over to Houston to scout out neighborhoods for when we move back in August. Dan has the day off tomorrow, so the timing worked out well.
I don’t think I’ve mentioned this before on my blog before, but we’re planning on buying our first house when we move back. We’ve lived in apartments for way too long, over 10 years now, so it’s definitely time. We’re excited about it, and I thought it would be nice to be able to use tomorrow as the day we start the process. Focusing on good things to come sounded like a nice distraction to me.
In addition to the neighborhood scouting, I thought some shopping (I’m in dire need of new sandals) would be fun, too. I also scheduled my first ever acupuncture appointment for tomorrow. That decision probably deserves its own post since I’m completely and totally a western medicine gal. I mean, I’m finally relenting on cycle #7.
Here’s the short version. The reason that I decided to do it this cycle is because my lining tends to be stubborn on FETs, and I have no desire to have to go through this never ending suppression again if I happened to get canceled. So, it’s really not a “I hope that if I add in this additional component that I’ll magically have a successful cycle” thing. It’s more of a “I really don’t want to have to go through this shit again or transfer embryos with a sub par lining” sort of thing.
Back to the subject at hand. Like I said, I’ve been planning all of this for a long time and have been looking forward to it. I booked us a nice hotel for tomorrow night and everything.
You know that things can’t ever go smoothly, though. Monday we found out that my in-laws had planned (and I use the term “planned” loosely) a last minute trip out this way. They’re going to be flying into Houston late tonight and will be there while we’re there and then will be coming over here on Saturday, the day we are also returning.
Now don’t get me wrong, I like my in-laws. Dan doesn’t get to see his parents very much since they live across the country, so it’s good that he’ll get to spend time with them. However, this puts a major wrench in my plans. It was so very important for me to spend tomorrow with Dan. Just Dan. It’s a private day for us. I needed for it to be that way.
Now it’s not going to be. I’m sure we’ll be spending a good deal of the day tomorrow with them so instead of being able to be sad if I need to, I’ll have to put on a happy face.
Of course I’m sure my in-laws don’t remember what tomorrow is for us. It’s just so frustrating to be planning this entire thing and now it’s not going to be how I imagined. I know I just need to suck it up, but it’s hard.
Hopefully just venting about it will help. I’m taking a risk by doing so, because I know that both my MIL and FIL have found my blog in the past independently of each other. They were both asked to evacuate the premises for the sake of my privacy. I guess we’ll find out if that’s happened. Or not, I don’t know.
I just hope tomorrow goes ok. I imagine the build up to the day might very well be harder than the actual day, but I could be wrong. I guess we’ll find out.
- Posted in : IVF Part 7: FET #3, various other ramblings
- Author : amanda
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Oh man. That development really sucks. A proper, timely heads up from the ILs might have been nice! You have to just suck it up so frequently when dealing with IF… it’s really a shame that you’d even have to consider doing that tomorrow of all days. I’ll be thinking of you.
Hey Amanda…I hope you can get through tomorrow with your sanity in tact. I deserately wanted my due date to be spent with my husband - some quality time, even some remembering and “what ifs.” It’s just something i felt we needed to confront…but of course EVERYONE and their mother got in the way of any of that happening. Before we knew it, the day was over. Looking back, I think I’m glad that we were so busy. it showed us that life does go on for us. We can remember anytime, and I find that we take the time to do just that without looking at the calendar. Being busy worked out for us, and maybe it will work for you too. I understand the need to be with Dan. I hope you can find a few hours to be together, and I hope your day turns out the way you need it to be. This too shall pass…I’ll be thinking of you.
That is not good news. You need your own time tomorrow. It has nothing to do with your in-laws, and how you feel about them. Of course, these things happen and I know you will take it with good grace. But I feel you.
I’ll be thinking of you tomorrow, Amanda. I’m so sorry this day even exists in this sad fashion.
Amanda, I’m with Taz. The day shouldn’t exist for starters. But also it’s a shame that you had figured out a way to take care of yourself and a wrench has been thrown into the works. Pats on the back for your good work and I hope you are right that tomorrow is just fine. I’ll be thinking of you!
I was loving the sound of your plans …. until the IL’s came into the picture, of course, but what can you really do? Talking to the two of you about the visit prior to buying plane tickets might have been a good idea. What if you weren’t even going to be in town?
I’m trying accupuncture this time around too for the first time in the hopes it will help my lining. I have an appt. for a consultation next week. I’d thought of doing it in the past but the idea of more needles going into my skin was not something that struck me as very relaxing. I just figured that, with this being my last shot, I might as well go all out.
Anyway, I’m thinking of you today and hoping your trip to Houston goes well, despite the alteration of plans.
wishing you and dan both a wonderful stress-reduced day. good luck on the sandle hunt too!
Thinking of you today, and hoping you and Dan do get some time alone together where you don’t have to put on a happy face.
I will be thinking of you today, Amanda. Looking for a new house sounds like a great distraction though.
Thinking of you today and hoping that you have some quiet moments with Dan.
Thinking of you, Amanda, I hope you got at least some quiet, contemplative, restorative time with Dan.