Guess What Today Is? May 14, 2006
What? Mother’s Day? Oh, we’re so not going to talk about one of the most dreaded holiday to infertiles. I’m sure I could go on and on about how much Mother’s Day sucks when you’ve been longing to be a mother for so long. I have a feeling I don’t really need to spell it out this year, though. Plus, it just makes me too damn sad to think about the fact that I should be celebrating my first Mother’s Day with a one month old when I’m not. Too damn sad.
Enough about that, though. Today is not only that dreaded day, but it’s my birthday. Lucky me, right? I wish I could say that I’m all excited about that, but I have to admit that it’s bittersweet. It’s yet another reminder that another year has passed by, and I’m still childless.
Back in the pre infertility days, I really wanted to have three kids by the time I was 30. I turn 29 today. I’m guessing that’s not going to happen. We so know that three of those embryos aren’t going to stick around. One would be a miracle.
The embryos help a little, though. There’s just something about knowing I’ve got embryos in there that makes for such a cool feeling. Of course, I’ve been wondering if I’ve killed them all already. It’s a definite possibility, but I sure hope not. This is the last time that I will ever have our embryos inside me. I need to try to enjoy that, because I’m never going to get the opportunity again.
You know what’s cool about today? I’m only two days past transfer and already halfway through the two week wait. I love blast transfers for that very reason.
I’m going to attempt not to be grumpy today. Today is hard, but I need to make an effort so that it doesn’t completely end up sucking. We’ve got some plans involving yummy food and tasty birthday cake, so that should help. Cake always helps.
- Posted in : IVF Part 7: FET #3
- Author : amanda
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Happy Birthday!!!!!!! Oh I am so praying this is it!
I hope the day and the cake are delicious!
Happy birthday, dear Amanda! Wishing you the best birthday present of all.
enjoy your cake your hubby and the feeling those embryos give. happiest of birthdays lovely
Happy Birthday Amanda! Eat a piece for me, cake always helps! Hugs.
Happy Birthday Amanda!
Happy Birthday! Eat lots of cake. :)
Hoping that even just one of those lovely embryos sticks. Hoping, hoping, hoping, and hoping.
Happy Birthday Amanda. Hoping and praying for you.
I’m sorry today sucks- hope the day goes quickly for you.
Happy Birthday! Something very special with those May Babies :-)
I really hope that for this years birthday all your dreams will be fullfilled. Eat cake! Always good! Yummy food is good too!
Enjoy your day, I hope you can!
Hugs!
happy birthday, Amanda. I hope the cake is good.
Wishing you a very happy birthday!
Happy birthday, Amanda!
Happy Birthday, Amanda.
I know it’s hard but I’m glad you’re going to attempt to enjoy the day. I hope this next year of your life is the start of a more happy time for you.
Happy birthday, sweetie. I hope you had a great day and good cake.
Happy Birthday, Amanda! I thought of you today and hoped your birthday was a nice mother’s day deterent.
Happy Birthday Amanda! I hope you enjoyed LOTS of cake!
Happy happy birthday, Amanda. I pray for the best for you and your husband. Stay strong and may God bless you always.
:) *big hug*
Amanda - I have been hovering around your blog for a little while and for some reason not knowing how to butt in (I think your writing must be very decisive!) but I wanted to say happy birthday, and as one half of a MFI couple too, that I hope good news for you. Meg
Happy Belated Birthday Amanda. Thinking of you and envying you cake hahaha!
Happy Birthday my dear, one day late. I’m sorry that my own drama caused me to miss the day for you. I hope the cake was yummy. May this year bring you your heart’s desire.
Happy Birthday and good luck!
Amanda, I can relate to your thoughts on “where you wanted to be” at 30. I just turned 30, and thought I would have at least 1 by now! Alas, it was not to be. I have adjusted my expectations drastically to being happy with 1 at any point of time…! :-)
Anyway, happy birthday to you. Best of luck to you and your embies!
Hey, we have the same birhday! I hope you were able to enjoy the day, and that you get good news very soon.
A belated Happy Birthday, and may all your birthday wishes come true (gee, wonder what those would be?)
Sorry for being late but Happy Birthday nonetheless. Don’t give up hope for a baby by 30 just yet, my dear!
Happy birthday, grumpy :)
I hope that your survived Mother’s Day and were able to enjoy your birthday cake!! Happy belated birthday.