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The Great and Powerful FRED Has Spoken May 19, 2006

Have you ever had your heart thump so hard that you felt like it was on the outside of your body? That was me this morning lying wide awake in bed waiting for enough time to elapse from the last time I had gotten up to pee so that I could get up and break out the HPTs. Knowing that so much was riding on those damn pee sticks was beyond nerve wracking.

FRED, and his distant cousin Equate, both think I’m pregnant. I’m 7dp5dt today, and I didn’t have to squint, hold the tests up to the light, or take them apart. There were definitely two lines on both of them.

As soon as I saw those double lines pop up, I sat down and cried. All I could think was Please don’t let me lose this one, too.

I realize that all I can do is take this one step at a time. The next step is beta on Sunday. We’ll take it from there.

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A couple of footnotes:

1. To all of my fellow pee stick addicts out there, I definitely recommend the newly redesigned FRED. You can tell you’re buying the new ones by looking at the picture on the box. The new ones have an oval result window instead of a rectangular one. I know the old ones were notorious for faint lines, but I think they’ve improved them.

2. To anyone who shares my major trait of impatience, just a heads up that I won’t be able to post Sunday’s beta result until late. We’re doing the house hunting thing Sunday afternoon and then we have to make the long drive back. I’ll post when we get back home Sunday night.

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1. AnnMarie - May 19, 2006

Fingers crossed for you, Amanda. I’m hesitant to be boisterous because I know you’re experiences, and I know mine. I pray this works out for you. i really do.

2. T - May 19, 2006

WAHOO! repeating myself, I know. And WHAT!?! on not reporting beta til late? Trying to kill us? What do you mean it’s not about me?

3. Sunny Jenny - May 19, 2006

HALLELUJAH!!! I am SO happy for you! I can only imagine your joy after such a harrowing journey! Congratulations!

4. Sunny Jenny - May 19, 2006

P.S.

What does FRED stand for?

5. Colleen C - May 19, 2006

Hi, I am a first time poster - long time lurker! And OMG! I am happily holding my breath for you, and will be back on here late Sunday praying for good news!!

6. amanda - May 19, 2006

Thanks, guys.

Jenny- FRED stands for First Response Early Detection. I think they’re actually called FRER’s now: First Response Early Result, but I like the old name better.

7. Jenn - May 19, 2006

I’ve got everything crossed tight for the beta. So far so good though, right?

NBHHY.

8. Cricket - May 19, 2006

All Hail FRED!

Congrats!

9. Cat, Galloping - May 19, 2006

Oh Amanda, yay yay yay. I know it’s a long road from here, but you’re on the road! YAY!

10. fisher queen - May 19, 2006

WOW!!!! I will be refreshing like mad on Sunday.

11. Kate - May 19, 2006

I am crossing everything that the beta is awesome and this little one is around for the long haul.

12. Nina - May 19, 2006

:-D

Very happy for you! Cautiously keeping my fingers crossed…skip that…frantically keeping my fingres crossed for the beta!

Many hugs to you! Please please make this work for you! Maybe I should go light a candle (this seemingly did the job for Fertility Shmertility when her mother lighted candles up in Ireland….maybe some Swedish candles for you :-))

Good luck girl!!!!

13. Kimmer - May 19, 2006

Congratulations Amanda,
Wishing you nice strong doubling beta numbers!

14. Emma B - May 19, 2006

Oh, Amanda, I’m so happy for you! I’ll be thinking NBHHY thoughts for you…

15. Kath - May 19, 2006

Dear Amanda, you should see the huge grin you have inspired on the other side of the Atlantic! My dear, I am so happy for you. Here’s to very auspicious beginnings. Here’s to strong and doubling betas. Here’s to happiness that holds.

A huge, relieved, reveling-in-NBHHY hug!

16. Anonymous - May 19, 2006

AMANDA!!! You have no idea how happy I am for you ! Your news put a BIG smile on my face! I am so excited… THank you amanda for Making my day!

17. Damarise - May 19, 2006

OK! Can you notice I am excited? I forgot to write my name…

18. deborah - May 19, 2006

FRED rocks! Congrats.

19. Karen - May 19, 2006

Oh, Amanda! I just about split my head with a giant grin. I’m so happy for you … wishing you nice strong betas and as little worry as possible.

20. STACY - May 19, 2006

Oh my god!! I almost cried at work when I read this! Please, please , please let this be it for you two!! You so deserve it!!!

21. Pamplemousse - May 19, 2006

Whoo-hoo! I like the sound of that alright! I got everything crossed for you, sweetie.

22. Wavery - May 19, 2006

OHMYGOD. Yay!

Oh yay. Let this be the end of it all. Best best best wishes

23. Brenda - May 19, 2006

Yay!!!!!!

I have chill bumps after reading this. I will patiently (ok… or not so patiently) be waiting to here the results on Sunday. Praying and crossing everything for you two!

24. Megan - May 19, 2006

Okay now this is going to sound totally random. I’m not sure if I’ve ever posted, I tend to just lurk. But I’ve been reading your story for awhile… hoping along with you. This morning, as I moved wash from the washer to the dryer, you popped into my mind. Not sure what made me think of you. And then I checked your site to find this awesome news. I hope all goes well with the beta!

25. Anonymous - May 19, 2006

Yay! So happy for you!

26. Erin - May 19, 2006

I am wishing you quiet congratulations but will hold back the big ones until you’re ready for them. I know that this isn’t a big sigh of relief for you, but a cautious one, and I truly hope that all the news about your pregnancy is good until your baby comes home, healthy and safe.

27. Heather - May 19, 2006

Yay! Keeping my fingers crossed that the good news continues!

28. hopefulmother - May 19, 2006

I really, really hope that your Beta is high on Sunday… cautiously THRILLED for you!

29. PJ - May 19, 2006

It’s a step in the right direction. I truly hope this is it for you. All my bits are crossed for you.

30. Sarah - May 19, 2006

Wow, that is great news! As the others, I will wish you a very quiet peep of ‘congratulations’ and good luck with the beta. I have everything crossed for nice doubling numbers.

At my clinic, they refer to success as a “take home baby”. This always makes me laugh because it sounds like “take-out baby” which makes me think of a little head popping out of one of those cardboard Chinese take out containers. So best wishes for “take-out” in 9 months!

31. Dee - May 19, 2006

G-d bless Fred–I love that thing! I couldn’t be happier for you and the mister…and crossing everything here that this is for keeps. NBHHY sweetie, may it stay that way for the next, oh say, 38 or so weeks!

32. Amy - May 19, 2006

Oh, I’m so very happy for you. Hoping so hard for strong beta numbers. Cautiuously celebrating - NBHHY.

33. Jessica - May 19, 2006

Extremities officially crossed

34. Fuzzy - May 19, 2006

Lost my comment! I’m keeping my fingers crossed and am going with the famous “NBHHY NBHHY NBHHY” and please please let this be your forever baby. Anxiously awaiting Sunday’s news and good good good luck!! May Sunday’s beta be fabulous *fingers crossed*
(oh please oh please)

35. susie - May 19, 2006

What great news! I’m so glad for you, and hoping everything goes great on Sunday! NBHHY!

36. Kari - May 19, 2006

Amanda - I’m so relieved/happy/cautiously optimistic for you! I hope you’re able to have a relaxing few days until Sunday. I’ll be thinking of you. And of course, everything is crossed.

37. beaver girl - May 19, 2006

holy shit and hurray!

38. taz - May 19, 2006

I have the biggest shit-eating grin on my face right now.

39. thalia - May 19, 2006

I want you to get a blackberry so you can post the beta from the road! So happy for this news Amanda. I know it is early days, but it’s great that you’ve got this far. We are all here, hoping very very very hard for you.

40. Leggy - May 19, 2006

I’m really happy that you made it this far. I am so hoping you make it the rest of the way (beta, doubling, good u/s, babe in 9 months)- I really truly hope this works for you.

41. Heather - May 19, 2006

YAY!!!! It’s early, blah blah blah, whatever, whatever — Amanda, you’re pregnant! WOOOHOOO!

42. kiwi - May 19, 2006

Oh wow! Keeping everything crossed for you! Wishing with all my heart that things work out!

43. Blue - May 19, 2006

EEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So glad the new and improved FRED worked out for you. (I hated the old model. Didn’t know what I was seeing.) So many body parts crossed for you I can’t think straight.
Congratulations.

44. zhl - May 19, 2006

So happy for you!! And I am so hoping this one sticks around. Surely, you can find internet access sooner on Sunday to let us all know. Take your laptop and just leave the wireless adapter open as you drive around the neighborhoods. If nothing else, it’s a good way to get to know your future neighbors.

45. Brooklyn Girl - May 19, 2006

Woo hoo! Hope Sunday gets here soon.

46. Jennifer - May 19, 2006

w00t w00t

I’m cheering and wanting to cry I’m so happy for you. Praying for wonderful news on Sunday.

(((((((((big hugs)))))))))))))

47. Rach - May 19, 2006

eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeekkkkkkkk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

48. lisa - May 19, 2006

Congratulations ~ I’m so excited for you!

49. elle - May 19, 2006

Goddammit, this has to work for you! Congrats congrats congrats!

50. Larisa - May 19, 2006

Oh…I hope this is it for you. I will be anxiously awaiting your beta results on Sunday.

51. Jenny - May 19, 2006

I have been following your journey and I have everything, including my eyelashes for you. Come on high beta…

52. Carrie P - May 19, 2006

Delurking to say how happy I am for you.

53. BrendaS - May 19, 2006

OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

And early to boot. Holy Shit… I didn’t even see a pos on FRED until 13dpo and I was pg with twins!

Am praying soooooooooooooooo hard that Number 7 is as lucky for you as it was for us. I can not even begin to tell you how happy I am for you.

54. projgen - May 19, 2006

Hugs hugs, Amanda, you’re in my prayers. I hope so much, too, that this is it. One day at a time. Although Sunday is going to be a very long day for me ;)

55. Jennie - May 19, 2006

wooohooooo!!!!!! congrats on double lines! oh what the hey lets OD on exclamation points !!!!!

so v v happy for you both, may this one double well and hang around to make you v round for the next 8.5 months.

just for fun a few more of these !!!!!! for you.

56. Cathy - May 19, 2006

Good thoughts will be continuously sent your way.

57. Meri-ann - May 19, 2006

Yay!! I can understand your hesitation- but this is just the news I needed this week so nothing bad is allowed to happen - ok??!!!!

Seriously I am so very happy for you- can’t wait til Sunday….

58. jill - May 19, 2006

Delurking to let you know I am sending you lots of Good thoughts and prayers :)!!

59. Cathy - May 19, 2006

Just came in to see how you’re doing. What great news! Keeping my fingers crossed and thinking of you.

60. Menita - May 19, 2006

I hope the next step and the next and the next continue to go your way. Will be refreshing obsessively on Sunday. And Monday. And Tuesday. And so on.
(please note the IRON self-control being exercised in this comment)

61. Mary Scarlet - May 20, 2006

oh amanda, what a great, great sign. i’m keeping fingers crossed for sunday but it looks so good!

62. Boulder - May 20, 2006

Excellent News!

I’ll be thinking good thoughts for a strong beta~

63. Julia - May 20, 2006

okay, so congrats-ish in a not-too-soon sort of cautious way…

But, more importantly - You have someone who’ll give you beta results on a SUNDAY?!

64. TraceyF - May 20, 2006

I have just recently been reading your blog (looking for hope on IVF success).. I will say congrats cautiously after reading and experiencing what you have already gone through.. but I can’t help but do a little happy dance your way! Your writing is beautiful, thank you for sharing.

65. Kyla - May 20, 2006

Crossing everything over here in Australia for you. :)

Let this one, please, be The One.:)

66. Staci - May 20, 2006

Yeah!!! (not an expression I normally have much occasion to use)

I’m reading this at 3 AM because I couldn’t sleep. Now I don’t think I’ll be going back to sleep anytime soon! I’m too excited for you!
Thanks for warning us that you won’t be able to post until late on Sun….will save me from checking my computer all day long.

67. dawn - May 20, 2006

oh jeez….Amanda it is a good sign, I am SOOOOOO crossing my fingers that tomorrow’s beta brings good news. I will be thinking about you all day. Hope the house hunting goes well, although I know your mind will be elsewhere.

Crossing, crossing, crossing…..

68. Amyesq - May 20, 2006

PRAYING for you! And so excited! Damn, it’s about time for something good. I have a good feeling about it this time but that is all I am going to say because I don’t want to jinx it.

69. In Due Time - May 20, 2006

Amanda, I am praying for you big time. I hope you get more wonderful news tomorrow. Hugs!

70. Jennie - May 20, 2006

it’s sunday here where’s the update? what do you mean I have to wait for your side of the world to catch up?

71. chris - May 20, 2006

I don’t comment that often, but I just wanted to say how happy I am for you. Please, whoever’s in charge, let this work out!

72. sube - May 20, 2006

Fantastic!! So happy for you.

73. kati - May 20, 2006

I’m so glad to read your news!

74. Fertile Soul - May 20, 2006

Thank God! Phew! I’m so happy for you. God bless you!

75. Meg - May 20, 2006

Good luck with the beta, Amanda. Thinking of you.

76. Miss X - May 20, 2006

OMG! I am hoping and wishing with all of my might for this to be it!

77. anantya - May 20, 2006

de-lurking because i just want to say that i have you in my prayers. i’m hoping and wishing madly that this works out. i’m also toooo excited to use exclamation marks.

ahhhhh.
godbless you both.

78. Beth - May 21, 2006

Fabulous news dear Amanda! NBHHY in full force here. Enjoy the house hunt!

79. Alexandra/Infertile Gourmet - May 21, 2006

Congratulations!!!!!!