Reality Sets In June 4, 2006
It’s really hard not to think about something like what I’ve been trying not to think about. As much as I’ve tried to stay in denial about everything, it is now hitting hard that tomorrow is a big day.
I’m nervous, and I’m terrified of bad news. I keep having flashbacks to my first ultrasound last time around. I’m just horrified of the thought of being put in the same situation tomorrow. I wish I could keep myself from thinking about the worst case scenario, but I can’t. It’s impossible after I’ve walked that road before.
Man, I wish I could be one of those people who just expects everything to go ok. It somehow seems to work out for those people. I’m expecting the opposite, though.
I also wish that hoping was enough. I sure as hell am hoping for wonderful news, but that’s never helped before. I don’t expect it to help any now.
I guess there’s nothing I can do but just try to make it tomorrow. Right now that seems like a feat unto itself.
- Posted in : IVF Part 7: FET #3
- Author : amanda
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You could let us do the hoping and expecting for you. I hope you make it through to tomorrow easilly, bad TV helps me. Find some way to be good to yourself and remember, you’re not alone.
The wait is excruciating - and I’ve always sucked at waiting. Hang in there, Amanda. My fingers are crossed for you tomorrow.
Avonlea’s right — let us do the stressing. I understand your fears and frustrations, but at this point you did all you can do. You did everything right. You had fantastic embryos and your body reacted beautifully. It will all be OK. I’ll be thinking of you.
Tomorrow’s my big day, too. What time for you? Let’s stress together, shall we? I have flashbacks too.
Rach
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I’ve been thinking about how you were holding up this weekend. I know tomorrow is a big day for you and considering what you have been through your fears are certainly justified. Know that we are all here thinking of you! Hang in there!
And don’t leave us haging too long tomorrow!
I’ve got everything crossed for good news tomorrow.
I wish you the best tomorrow. Hang in there.
I’m with you, waiting is appalling. Bad tv is the only answer. Thank goodness for australia’s next top model is all I can say. I will be thinking about you tomorrow, and hoping really hard.
Clumsily patting your hand, waiting for your news, hoping really hard.
Nothing I can say will relieve your stress or tension- just do your best to be a perkyturd and expect everything to be ok ;-)
Seriously though; thinking of you love and can’t wait to hear your good news. x
Thinking of you and hoping so badly for good news tomorrow
Asking the powers that be that all goes excellently for you tomorrow.
I’m hoping and expecting for you, too. Thinking very good thoughts for you!
Hang in there Amanda. Hoping for the very best of news.
Do not blame you one bit. This carp takes the joy out of it all. Nonetheless, NBHHY and I am hoping and praying for great news for you tomorrow!
I know that fear very well and it sucks that our naivete in all of this is gone…oh what it would be like to just expect good!
Believe you me, though, I’m expecting good for you and hoping like hell that the news is fantastic…just keep breathing my friend. Just keep breathing. NBHHY.
Hoping right along with you. Good luck tomorrow.
Thinking of you and saying extra prayers tonight.
Hang in there.
I’ll be thinking of you tomorrow and hoping for only great news.
Amanda, I am hoping and praying for you today. Hugs my friend. Big Hugs!
AnnMarie has some good advice. All my bits are crossed.
Me too…all af the above (i.e. what everybody said). Keeping my bits tightly crossed today!
Good luck!
Hugs!
Dear Amanda, hoping and nile-biting along with you. May you get the best possible news today.
I wish I knew some bit of advice to tell you how to face this. I never knew how. Even up until the hour of her birth, I wasn’t sure I’d get to go home with a baby. Hell, even then there was NICU to contend with.
So don’t beat yourself up for worrying. I’d think you had some clinical “issues” if you were upbeat about it! And keep in mind that your attitude isn’t going to effect the outcome of tomorrow’s ultrasound. Whatever is going to happen was already put into motion.
With that said, I’m saying some prayers.
I’m going to need a chiropractor after tomorrow, I’m so twisted keeping evrything crossed for you, I so hope beyond hoping that it’s good news I next read of. Julia is right tho lovely attitude means jack you do and feel what you need too to get through this hopefully in 8 odd months this will all be a distant memory.
Refreshing madly, hoping even more madly.
Today is the big day that I hope is a huge relief for you. I read all the time and I am sick with worry for you. If you have like a bagillion hits today, don’t worry, it’s just me refreshing every 5 minutes! I really hope this is it for you.
I’m a new reader of your journal and have been lurking for the past two week. I finally wanted to step in and send a bit of extra support for today. I hope that today is everything that it should be and more. Everything is crossed for you!
Amanda, I hope today brings great news. I am thinking of you…