I Love Me Some Internets August 20, 2006
Yesterday we finally got our own internet connection up and running. Thank goodness. I was starting to go a little crazy. So was Dan. It’s still surreal to be living in this house, but each day it feels a little more like it’s actually ours.
One thing about moving from a tiny apartment, one whose furniture was purchased during college, law school, and the days of massive IVF spending, to a nice new house is that we’re going to need to do some serious furniture shopping. We went and scoped things out on Friday and found some things we liked.
We’re going to have to wait just a bit before we can start making major purchases, though. Making our down payment and paying closing costs pretty much put our bank accounts into shock, but thankfully Dan will be receiving a nice clerkship bonus when he starts back at the firm. Then it will be time to do some serious damage.
There’s not a ton to report on the pregnancy front. I hit 17 weeks today, and I’m still a big scaredy cat. I’m just so worried that my body is going to fail the little guy in there. My MTHFR stuff puts me at a higher risk of preeclampsia, and having my cervix manually dilated so many times in the past may put me at an increased risk of incompetent cervix. I can’t help but worry about that stuff.
I am so very grateful to have gotten so far, but I just cannot sit back and relax as some people have suggested I do. I can’t buy baby stuff. I can’t decide on a name. I just can’t assume that everything is going to work out. I can hope, though, and that’s what I’m doing every second.
- Posted in : Post cycle #7: Trying to stay knocked up, various other ramblings
- Author : amanda
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Hope is good. Hope is VERY good. I know you can’t relax… and you won’t relax until you have that little guy in your arms (and even then, you may have a worry or two because let’s face it: that’s motherhood). So just take it, day by day. You’re almost halfway there.
I totally relate to the house thing too. We felt the SAME way when we moved into our house. So unreal. :) Have fun furniture shopping!
And you know what? We’re all hoping with you. I still get scared that I’ll wake up and find this has all been a wonderful dream, but that in reality I’ve never been pregnant. And P is 2 1/2.
Enjoy the purchasing! If you look now, you might find something you really like that goes on sale in a month or two. Always a bonus!
Amanda, this is all awesome. I understand your fear and concerns and I hope you’re able to wake up one day and enjoy that growing belly. Congratulations on your new home too!
The pregnancy fear is so natural…it never entirely went away for me. It seems there is always something new to worry about. The nice thing is that the time DOES pass, and it does get slightly better. Hope is awesome and good enough, definetly. I’m hoping for you too!
You’re right not to push yourself. No need to add extra stress. Things will fall into place when and how they should. Every day that goes by you get a little closer. Hope is good, and continued hope is better. Keep coasting : )
Furniture shopping is the best love love love it, glad your both settling into your new home it takes a bit for the weird to fade out huh.
17 weeks is wonderful news, PreE sucks and i truly hope you avoid it’s clutches wishing you the very easiest of months ahead
I’m hoping right along side you, Amanda! 17 wks is GREAT. And fwiw, my highly recommended OB/GYN says that having had the cervix dilated in the past does not increase risk of incompetent cervix. He says that things like cone biopsies or surgeries to the cervix do, but simple dilations shouldn’t be a factor. But I still hope you have a great OB who will watch you for that and other things, and it’s good to know what the symptoms are…
And on the house - woohooo! Decorating and furniture! I hope you guys can start the wild buying spree soon, and I can’t wait for pictures!
I think hope is good enough! Enjoy your new house!
Glad to hear that the move is done and you are working on the unpacking!
Take care and wishing you well… 17 weeks is great, wishing you a whole bunch more!
Just strolling through the IF blogs and noticed yours. I wanted to congratulate you. It sounds like you have been through so very much. I hope you continue to have health and happiness! Best wishes to you!
Hope is amazing. And more than enough right now. Enjoy your new house and your hope.
Don’t beat yourself up - hoping is just fine for now. Grrl didn’t even allow a bottle in the house until gefilte was born and in her arms, no reason why you have to do anything now (just make sure someone buys you a few onesies, diapers, and some nipple cream just before the little guy shows up, at a minimum).
Glad you are doing fine.
I didn’t know that MTHFR put me at higher risk for preeclampsia! Great - one more thing to worry about.
I’m 15 weeks now and I still have these panic attacks that something is about to go terribly wrong. I’m so afraid of having to “un-tell” about my pregnancy - again. It just stinks that we can’t just be oblivious and enjoy it all.
Enjoy your upcoming shopping spree!!
You know, every time I see “MTHFR”, I think of “motherf#&$#@”. . . It makes for quite a colorful read of an otherwise straightforward post. Sorry about my potty mouth! :-)
Congrats on the new house! it is beautiful! Congrats on the pregnancy too :) I am prego with # 2 and I haven’t been able to enjoy this one as much as the last due to complications and excessive worrying and a previous m/c. But, I am 32 weeks now and everything is going well - my worrying is subsiding and I am just looking forward to meeting the little bugger. Just keep thinking happy positive thoughts and your prego will be just perfect :)
Holy smoke 17 weeks, wow time is flying, your almost half way there. I understand the anxiety. Happy shopping also!
17 weeks! And people are bugging you for names? I didn’t buy anything for A until about 2 months ago - do what is good for you Amanda. It’s a hard line - you feel so lucky, so unbelievably lucky, but you’re still so petrified. The party line is still - whatever gets you through the day.