Better September 1, 2006
It’s always good to have a couple of days to let yourself just breath. I’ve now digested Wednesday’s news and am finding myself doing better with it.
I have to admit that I’m worried less about the echogenic focus than about my body failing the little guy. Placenta issues and cervix issues and MTHFR issues all combine together to add just a tiny bit of worry to the situation.
I’m not going to be having any more testing done. The risk of an amnio is just not something I’m up for after all it took to get to this point. Plus, Dan and I are both in agreement that we wouldn’t terminate if the little guy does fall on the wrong side of the odds and does have Downs. It’s not really something we had discussed in detail before since we didn’t ever really expect to have this IVF stuff work in the first place and quite honestly our feelings in the past may not have been the same as our feelings now, but when the peri asked us on Wednesday if we would terminate if an amnio showed Downs we both answered no. It would be a different story if we were dealing with the possibility of something terminal, but I don’t think either of us could feel any other way at this point.
All of the stuff with my cervix and the placenta does worry me, but I feel better knowing that I’m in good hands with both my OB and the peri and that I am being monitored closely. My OB said from the very beginning that they would be watching me like a hawk, and that is indeed what’s happening.
I guess all of my time spent on the IVF roller coaster has allowed me to roll with the punches a bit more easily than I would have been able to without it. I know that unexpected things can pop up at any time. You just have to do your best to keep moving forward, and that’s what I’m doing. I’m trying my best to do what I can on my end and hoping for things that are out of my control to work out. Of course I’m prepared as much as one can be for more curves to be thrown in my path. I’m used to curves. I just hope this winding road leads to a real live baby in my arms.
On a slightly different note, I wanted to answer a couple questions I’ve been asked. I’m 18w5d today. I’m not always great about remembering to post how far along I am. If I continue to neglect to update that info and anyone is ever interested in knowing, you can find out by scrolling down past my links in the sidebar. I didn’t want an in your face type ticker, that is so not me, but I put that script in there after I realized that I’m not so great at updating how far along I am in my posts.
Also, no belly shots have been taken. This is the only belly shot that will be posted on this blog.
One more thing before I take the weekend off. (We’re having my family in for Labor Day weekend, our first time to play hosts in the new house). I thought it was kind of funny when the nurse at the high risk OB’s office asked me if I had had an ultrasound done earlier in the pregnancy. I replied that I had already had seven done, and she was like, “Seven???” As soon as the magic letters I-V-F were uttered she understood. I guess even at a peri’s office I’m a bit of a freak.
Thank you guys for all of your supportive comments the past couple of days. They mean so much.
- Posted in : Post cycle #7: Trying to stay knocked up
- Author : amanda
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I’m glad you’re in better spirits. Enjoy your holiday weekend and enjoy your company in your new home.
hey, freak girl! nah…not really…but yeah, I could see where the peri’s office might even be surprised at seven. they just don’t know what you’ve been through to get there.
glad that your spirits are up. enjoy your weekend with your family!
You have to have a belly shot even if you don’t post it.LOL enjoy your weekend. Thanks for the update, I’m glad your feeling better
I think by the end of my pregnancy I had over 20 ultrasounds, probably closer to 30. I’m glad you are feeling better. Have a good holiday!
What a stressful thing to hear! I have a friend who was 45 and 5 months pregnant and had an ultrasound because of high risk. The doctor reported that because of the space found between the toes of fetus and something else that those were indicators of down syndrome. The baby was born fine, with no ds. But talk about a stressful remaining pregnancy! Gah!
Take care and i hope you have a relaxing weekend.
I’m glad you’ve gotten a bit of peace, and I hope that things go a bit more easily for you throughout the pregnancy. The fact that they’re monitoring you so closely is great, and should be able to catch any more issues with the placenta & cervix.
As for the belly shots–not posting them is fine, but please do consider taking some pictures for yourself. I was too wary to take many, and now I really wish I had taken more. (Just my unsolicited advice!)
Dear Amanda, I just read your last post and wanted to say I am thinking of you and hoping the little guy is just fine. (I haven’t read any of the comments on the last post, so forgive me if this is repetitive, but the way I understand it, an echogenic focus is a soft marker, and in the absence of any other markers the chances are very good that everything’s OK.) I’m glad you and your husband have the same thoughts on how to proceed from here. Hoping, too, that no other issues with your cervix, placenta or anything else crop up. Thinking of you.
Thinking of you too Amanda,
And praying that all is okay, hope you are enjoying the weekend with your family.
Rolling with the punches sounds like a great approach to me especially combined with the care of both a good OB and peri (I’m in the same boat).
Wow–19 weeks! Fantastic :-) And, if I’m not mistaken, “the little guy”–a boy for certain?! Did I miss that previously? If I did, sorry, I’m a ding bat these days (okay, these past months).
Amanda,
That is a lot of big news to process. You and your husband will know what’s right in your hearts, and I applaud you for following it this far! You’ll be in my thoughts, and I’ll keep my fingers crossed for ya!
Well, if you don’t post belly shots then do please take them for yourself if for no other reason. You deserve this. It’s almost to the half way mark. Thanks for posting the little calculator. Now I will never have to ask lol! Hope you enjoy your weekend. Does Dan go back to work tomorrow? or has he been back for a week now? I forget…
I’m glad you’re feeling better about things. I know my IVF experience and the strength I gained from it has helped tremendously with all of Julia’s stuff. I still wish I hadn’t had to go through it but at least it’s made us stronger!