What Now? July 20, 2008
You know you’re a sucky blogger when people leave comments on your last post politely reminding you that you haven’t posted in forever. I guess I have no real excuse. Adam keeps me very busy these days, but I know it’s more than that that’s kept me from my blog the past couple of months.
I guess the older Adam gets (he’s 18 months now!) the further away I get from the me that I picture as the author of this blog. I don’t know if that makes sense, but I’m finding myself gaining at least some closure on the whole infertility subject. Don’t get me wrong, I am forever changed by what we went through. I’m not the same person I was before I jabbed myself with a needle. I’m not the same kind of mom I would have been without going through IVF hell. The more I spend time with Adam, though, the more my heart is healed. I don’t want to think about infertility hell and the person I was while in it on a daily basis anymore.
I don’t really know what that means for this blog. Obviously I suck as a “mommy blogger.” I never intended to be one. And it’s not like we’re going to be jumping back in the IVF ring again anytime soon, or ever. So, where does that leave me?
I do know that there are some things that I’d like to get out of my head and onto “paper.” I’ve been meaning to devote a post to breastfeeding for the longest time. It’s important to me to do at least that. Before Adam was born I wasn’t even sure how long we’d last. And those first couple of months made me wonder even more. Well, here we are at a year and a half and still going strong, and I think that is worth a post or two. So, maybe I’ll get around to that at some point.
There are other things that come to mind when I think about what I could blog about. Like how things are so different than I expected them to be. I’m so much more of an AP kind of parent that I ever imagined.
I know there is stuff I can blog about. I guess I just need to figure out if I have the motivation to do so anymore. I’ll leave ya with a recent pic of our little man until I can figure out what the heck I’m doing here.
- Posted in : our main man, various other ramblings
- Author : amanda
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Gorgeous little man that he is.
It’s good to hear from you.
How are his allergies going?
How are you feeling about being a mother? How is your own identity developing?
I’ve been wondering where you were! And how Adam is doing, allergy-wise. He’s absolutely gorgeous, and of course I’d love to hear more about him if/when you feel like it.
hey chickling, you know I’ll be checking bloglines forever to see if a new post has been made here, doesn’t matter what it’s about it’s great to know there is “the other side” and to catch a glimpse of what it looks like.
Adam is a little honey! he’s grown so much I wont push for more news but hey if you feel like posting you know it’ll be read!
breastfeeding, update on adams solid foods, things you have been doing this summer with a walking little one, things he’s learning, anything new youve done to the house/yard.. theres a few topics for ya!
He’s adorable. Glad ya decided to post :-) I know I miss your daily (or weekly, OR monthly ha ha) post.
Lovely to hear from you, Amanda. He’s such a cutie.Really, just so cheeky and gorgeous.
(I have surprised myself on the AP front too. Heh, still co-sleeping at 16 months.)
Good to hear from you! I can’t believe how big he is! What a cutie!
so good to hear from you! and so great to see a pic of your cute little man! hope he’s doing better allergy-wise.
Wow–he’s getting so big! Cuter than ever too :-) I see a smidge of mischevious on that face (comes from having a little one fond of her own mischevious looks).
Glad to hear your voice again and know that things are moving along. Hoping to hear more when/if you’re ready.
Amanda, I sound like a broken record but he is absolutely adorable. I’ve been wondering how his allergy issues have been going too. Glad to hear from you!
Great to hear from you. I can relate to not knowing what to do about posting. I am pretty private about my babies and do not really want to blog anymore (nor do I have the time!). I feel like it is a place that will always be here and I started writing for me, so perhaps it will be used again for me in whatever way, shape or form I choose.
In the meantime, I LOVE your updates and you are still such an inspiration for me — you truly conquered IF.
Adam is adorable too!!!
What an absolute cutie-pie (and gorgeous neighborhood)!
I totally hear ya on the “where does this blog go from here” thing. I called it a wrap on my blog, although I still leave it on the net.
Whatever you decide to do - I’ll always remember you as my first inspiration that I could conquer azoospermia - and I did!
Thank you for that.
At a minimum . . . keep the photos coming . . . he’s a doll!
I really can relate to this post. I have the best of intentions of getting back to posting regularly but I just don’t feel comfortable in my own skin(blog) anymore. I am not the same person I was when I started it. I am not a fertile myrtle either but….. It’s not that you forget.. or that you don’t understand how it permanently changed you… you are just not in “it” and you don’t want to be.
Adam is so cute and congrats on the breasfeeding, despite the allergy issues it looks like he’s thriving, you have to be very proud of that!
Long time lurker de-lurking…
Dang he’s a cute little boy!