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The Binder November 24, 2009

Even before I went on my first IVF consult, I started an IVF binder. It was an easy way to keep all of my records together and to have a place to keep track of all of the endless numbers that come along with the IVF process.

I pulled out my binder last week in preparation for my appointment tomorrow. A while back I went through and purged it (about the same time when I decided to give away all of my maternity clothes) but I left all of the important stuff.

It was weird to read back through it all. It brought back a lot. The ink on the paper spoke of follicle counts and E2 levels, but my mind holds the memories of all of the blood, sweat, and tears that accompanied those numbers.

I couldn’t help but smile, though, when I came across the picture of our last four embryos. One of those is Adam. It put it all in perspective.

I’m nervous about tomorrow. I keep wondering what will come of it. I honestly don’t know if Dan will agree to cycle regardless of what my RE has to say on the matter. I want that door to be open for us, though. I think about it a lot.

I really don’t know if the list of questions I printed out for my appointment tomorrow will be the last page I add to my binder or the first page of a new section. Only time will tell.

Comments»

1. Jen - November 24, 2009

wishing you luck tomorrow. It’s nerve wracking at best to know you are fronting up for more than a hiya been awhile chat. Take several deep breaths and don’t forget to update so we know how you went.

2. Coleen - November 25, 2009

Thinking of you and wishing you the best of luck. I hope your meeting makes your future decisions easier.

3. Krista - November 25, 2009

Let’s hope that whatever the doctor says, you and Dan are on the same page. That would make life so much easier.

4. Kari - November 25, 2009

I hope it all went well…

5. T - November 26, 2009

So how did it go sunshine? I hope you guys are having a great thanksgiving!