I Forgot How Much IVF Sucks February 15, 2010
Apparently I had some serious amnesia about how hardcore IVF really is. I don’t know how someone who has been through four previous fresh cycles could possibly forget this fact, but I managed to block it out somehow. I am already getting my ass kicked hard by these damn meds, and I have a ways to go.
My hope for this cycle was to be somewhere in the middle of fresh cycle #3, my dismal cycle, and #4, my crazy high E2 cycle. I guess my body decided that was a good plan, because after two full days of stims my E2 was 255 this morning, pretty solidly in the middle of my 40 and 525 from those previous cycles. I get to stay on my 450IU/day of Gonal-F and go back Friday morning.
I had monitoring on stim day 5 during my previous cycles at this clinic, but I guess they’ve decided I don’t need it this time for whatever reason. In the past I would have worried about not getting an ultrasound before Friday, but honestly, at this point, I’m just glad I don’t have to make the drive in on Wednesday morning.
It’s pretty sad that I’m already at the point where I absolutely cannot wait for this to be over. The reality is that without IVF we don’t get any chance, so I am grateful for its existence. But when it comes right down to it, being smack dab in the middle of an IVF cycle just plain sucks.
- Posted in : IVF Part 8: the 2nd time around
- Author : amanda
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It does suck! It’s very stressful…in some ways my cycle with Daniel was just as stressful as all the others. Sounds like a great E2 so far and I can’t wait to hear Friday’s update!
IVF does really suck, doesn’t it?
Hoping that things go as smoothly as possible!
Ugh! May it go quickly and well…
Between FET and testing, it’s a bit of time between my last IVF and the next one. I think I’m going to be in the same boat. I think we tend to block out the crappy bits and just remember that we got through it somehow. I think I’m going to be cursing all the needles when I get there.
Just a note that I’m cheering for you every step of the way, even the sucky ones.
:( I am sorry it all such a pain – literally and figuratively! I am keeping my fingers crossed that it will all be worth it in the end and hopefully all will go smoothly. Hang in there!
It really does suck. Time plays such games with your head that things rarely seem as bad in hindsight. Hoping you get through this. You’re approaching the part that usually, from my perspective, moves pretty quickly. And then the LONG part.
Ha ha! It does, but you jones for it when you’re not doing it. Ivf junkies unite! Sorry I’m so late to the game, all these Sarah Palin scandals have been keeping me busy!