The Worst of the Wait March 5, 2010
I’m sure different people find different parts of the infamous two week wait to be most torturous. For some, it’s the wait for the fertilization report. For others, it’s the wait to see what makes it to transfer. I know for a lot it’s beta day itself. And there are no doubt people that fall everywhere in between.
For me the worst is right now. The wait to find out how our embryos are faring in the lab is always nerve wracking, but I’m oddly comforted by the fact that they are sitting in a dish. It’s nice to have someone peek in on them and tell you how they’re doing.
The few days following transfer really aren’t too bad for me. It feels nice to have made it past the transfer hurdle, and just dealing with possibility at that point is a welcome change for me. Since we’ll never be able to conceive without IVF, the only times things feel remotely possible are when I’ve got embryos in there.
Beta day isn’t necessarily the worst for me, because by that point I usually have a pretty good idea of at least whether things will be positive or negative. (There was that one cycle that I had a beta of 7 which threw me off, but usually I walk into beta day with at least an inkling of whether I’ll be getting a good phone call or a bad one.)
I know pee stick day is a nerve wracking one, and it always has been for me. But it’s still not the worst, because I’ve gotten to the point where I have a pretty good idea about those, too. I knew on Adam’s cycle that I’d be getting positive tests. I could just tell by that point.
So, it’s today, day 9 where things get really tough for me. This is the day where actual pregnancy symptoms have started creeping up for me in the past. It’s the day where I really start going crazy trying to analyze every twinge. I swear, I almost yelled at myself today, “Amanda, stop poking your boobs! They’re going to get sore whether or not you’ve got HCG floating around in your system if you poke them enough.” Yeah, like I said, crazy.
At least the torture is contained to my mind. My bladder is doing much better today. Thank goodness for drugs. Of course, my stomach and hips are not quite as happy with the Lovenox and PIO as my bladder is with the antibiotics, but I’ll take what I can get.
I’m really glad it’s almost the weekend. I think it will be easier to distract myself from the insanity. Well, at least a little.
- Posted in : IVF Part 8: the 2nd time around
- Author : amanda
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This is a hard time during a cycle, that’s for sure. I didn’t realize you were on lovenox (I am as well). I think that the lovenox causes some bloating which makes all the symptoms even more pronounced.
A beta of 7? Talk about a mind f*ck. What on earth does one feel with a screwy number like that? Hope? Depression? OMG…
Um, so when are the sticks making their appearance for the love of cheesus? Start peeing! Lol. Kidding, well not really but….
Glad your bladder is feeling better though, that’s good news!
Hang in there.
Glad the bladder is better, but I’m w/ Kim – when are we peeing??!!
Wow, your description in your last post of your pain was so vivid :( I’m so glad to hear you’re already feeling a bit better. Hopefully by now, you’re nearly 100%! Well, as 100% as you can be while waiting to stick it to the man. heh.
Your story was raelly informative, thanks!