One Last Appointment April 13, 2010
Today I went in for my post op follow up. It was not fun to walk into my clinic again. That waiting room will never just be a waiting room for me. It’s the place where I flopped down on a sofa and moaned while my tube was bursting.
The follow up with my RE was fine. It was pretty uneventful. He just wanted to make sure I was healing ok. He said my incisions looked fine, etc.
He showed me the pictures from my surgery. They were pretty bad. My tube was huge and filled with blood, and there was blood spilling out everywhere. And then I got to look at the picture of my now tubeless right side. At least that one was all neat and bloodless.
So, I shook his hand and said that I wouldn’t be back. Then I walked out of the clinic and held back my tears. For such an easy appointment compared to so many that I’ve had, it wasn’t really all that easy.
- Posted in : IVF Part 8: the 2nd time around
- Author : amanda
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Oh Amanda, I’m just so very sorry you have gone through this hell. I am SO glad you are okay now, though. Hang in there, my thoughts are with you. You are one tough mama.
I am so sorry you had to go through all that. Going to those offices are hard anyways without the memory of all that you experienced. I am thinking of you. Sending lots of hugs.
I’m so sorry Amanda. I wish there was something I could say or do to make that experience easier. Mirella is right, it is hard to go to the office anyhow, but now with the added bonus of more (negative) memories and blech, it just sucks. In the midst of all that though, thank you for sharing this part of the journey with us, as difficult as it is.
Sending you love from the coast :)
I am catching up here and I missed so much. I don’t have the words to erase the situation but I just want to say I admire your courage and strength.
I am so sorry. You are in my thoughts.
There is something about the finality in this that made me cry. I am so sorry.
I’m so sorry.
How could it be easy honey? You were saying goodbye to a part of yourself and your life.
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